Isn't it time for this baby to be here??
Thursday, June 29, 2017
I am so over this. The weight is coming off, which is great, but I can't keep doing this. I'm analyzing like EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth. I can't get my numbers under control. I am SO SICK of eggs. I'm sure they'll put me on meds the next time I go in, and I can't say it would be surprising. I dread meal and snack time. I stare at the fridge and cabinets and can't find anything that looks appealing. And then my damn in laws give me and my kids donuts! DONUTS?? Seriously? I was not a happy camper. I could just cry.
I had fricking salsbury steak, peas & mashed potatoes for dinner, and my number was 172 (supposed to be under 140 for a 1 hour stick. Breakfast, I had a bowl of frosted flakes and soy milk. 217! Like all I can eat is eggs and pbj!!!! I am not eating junk. But It's still not working. Oatmeal and fruit for breakfast. Sounds healthy, right? Nope. I get better numbers with a mcdonalds egg mcmuffin and hash brown! McDonalds? Really??
I told my friends that when the baby is born I'm treating us all to like the most carb-rich bad for us meal we can think of. I'm thinking like Olive garden with their heavenly breadsticks, and lasagna or something with a Coldstone Gotta Have it Death by Chocolate or something. I don't care if I sit on the toilet for a month for it. I just want to be able to eat FOOD. Normal food. Without everything being on the "Can't have it" list. I'm going CRAZY.
3 more months. How on earth do I do this??? Sticking myself 4x a day, Eating practically nothing but eggs and pbj. :(
If you read this far, thanks. I just need to cry about this for awhile.