Monday, June 26, 2017
In case I missed commenting back to anyone who reviewed my blog "How do you control your worry?" I wanted to say a big
The response on that blog was the biggest I had ever received. I tried to keep up with thanking everyone but just in case I missed anyone I wanted you to know that I appreciated each and every comment.
This is going to be a tough week for me. I'm coming up on the 1 year anniversary of my mom's death. (July 1) It's been a very hard year for me. I've been in and out of grieving to the point that I think I'm actually depressed now. I can't think of her without tears running down my face. Some days I'd love to just run and hide but the world steps in and tells me when it's time to go to work, or exercise or eat or 100 over things that have to be done. Simply put, I miss my mom!
I had such a wonderful opportunity on the phone the other day. (I work at a 2-1-1 agency providing mental health services and information & referral services) A man about my age suffered the same loss I did last year. Mine in July, his in September. We've actually been good for each other consoling each other. Yes I shared the loss of my own mom because I wanted him to understand that I understood. He calls me every once in awhile and tells me how he's doing. We've shared a lot of "firsts" this year. First Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentines, Birthday...and soon my first year of loss (his too, when the time comes). It gets easier as the time passes by, but I don't want to ever forget. Mom taught me so much of what I passed on to my own girls. They miss their grandmother too. Heck truth of the matter be known, anyone who came in to contact with her, misses her. It's so hard hearing her sister crying on the phone when we talk. She just can't wrap her head around mom being gone. I console her with a cracking voice of my own and move on with my day. I have to work on July 1st. It's this coming Saturday in fact, but not too many people will be there at work that day, so if I lose it, it will be okay.
With that being said, thank you all once more for listening to a grieving friend.. I love all of you very much.....
My exercise is done and out of the way. I have my lunch fixed and ready to go and I'm going to grab a big ripe apple for breakfast. Yum!!!
Just for kicks ~