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Monday, June 26, 2017

In case I missed commenting back to anyone who reviewed my blog "How do you control your worry?" I wanted to say a big

The response on that blog was the biggest I had ever received. I tried to keep up with thanking everyone but just in case I missed anyone I wanted you to know that I appreciated each and every comment.

This is going to be a tough week for me. I'm coming up on the 1 year anniversary of my mom's death. (July 1) It's been a very hard year for me. I've been in and out of grieving to the point that I think I'm actually depressed now. I can't think of her without tears running down my face. Some days I'd love to just run and hide but the world steps in and tells me when it's time to go to work, or exercise or eat or 100 over things that have to be done. Simply put, I miss my mom!

I had such a wonderful opportunity on the phone the other day. (I work at a 2-1-1 agency providing mental health services and information & referral services) A man about my age suffered the same loss I did last year. Mine in July, his in September. We've actually been good for each other consoling each other. Yes I shared the loss of my own mom because I wanted him to understand that I understood. He calls me every once in awhile and tells me how he's doing. We've shared a lot of "firsts" this year. First Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentines, Birthday...and soon my first year of loss (his too, when the time comes). It gets easier as the time passes by, but I don't want to ever forget. Mom taught me so much of what I passed on to my own girls. They miss their grandmother too. Heck truth of the matter be known, anyone who came in to contact with her, misses her. It's so hard hearing her sister crying on the phone when we talk. She just can't wrap her head around mom being gone. I console her with a cracking voice of my own and move on with my day. I have to work on July 1st. It's this coming Saturday in fact, but not too many people will be there at work that day, so if I lose it, it will be okay.

With that being said, thank you all once more for listening to a grieving friend.. I love all of you very much.....

My exercise is done and out of the way. I have my lunch fixed and ready to go and I'm going to grab a big ripe apple for breakfast. Yum!!!

Just for kicks ~
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    750 days ago
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    750 days ago
    emoticon emoticon May July 1st be a peaceful day for you .... full of good memories and find comfort in knowing that she is with you each day. emoticon
    750 days ago
  • BLUEJAY1969
    You are so welcome my friend. I'm sorry you are still hurting so much. Grief is such an individual thing and I'm like 2BDYNAMIC, I have no advice just a great big hug and I agree that your mom would want you to go on and enjoy your life. I hope you can one day think of her and enjoy the wonderful memories you made with her. I know there must be many.
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    750 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Grief is like the waves that with time laps gently at our feet but out of the blue crashes over us and totally engulfs us. It is not linear steps one goes thru but rather there as our constant companion. Gradually we adapt to it. It changes with time. Celebrating good memories can help. emoticon for your loss of your prescious mother.
    750 days ago
  • 52BINCE
    May that day of the one year comfort you with loving memories, as you know your Mom is looking down on you with a smile ... and she would want you to be happy. ....
    751 days ago
    ((((HUGS)))) The first are definitely tough to deal with. My brother passed away 35 yrs. ago and some days it just seems like yesterday. Grief is a sneaky pete. You think you're dealing pretty well and POW. There it is again. But as you say, with time, it is a bit easier, only because the good memories are more pronounced.

    751 days ago
    You are welcome Donna. emoticon I'm sorry you are having a hard time with missing your Mom so much. I know you could never forget a Mother and a friends of whom you were so close to. No advice, just hugs, but know my dear friend, you will be together again, and I am sure she would want you to go on living and enjoying each day. Hopefully you can think of her with smiles rather than tears. Love you.
    751 days ago
  • P61763
    Good morning
    751 days ago
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