Reflecting Back Looking Forward
Friday, June 23, 2017
I sit here thinking about when I REstarted my weight loss journey back in February of this year and I am so happy with what I have accomplished so far. Although it has only been four months and counting, I have done more in this time period to lose weight then I have done since I began SparkPeople back in 2013. I have overthrown my negative, give-up attitude and have taken on a whole new me who is determined and willing to do what is right FOR ME!!
For the first time in 26 years of being with my husband, as we were walking around the lake last night, he actually had to tell me to slow down, because he and the kids couldn't keep up. He also mentioned how tired and exhausted he was by the time we got back to the car. Although it sounds mean, I was actually happy to hear that and laughed. He has always said that I needed to do this or that to help me lose weight and I never would because it was "to difficult for me" because of my mommy/wife duties, so I thought.
See, I haven't been exercising at home because, well, IT IS to hard for me to do so with all the demands needing to be met with the hubs and kids. I have been taking my mornings and lunch time at work to do at least 30-60 minutes of exercise a day. It's funny how much you can get done without interruptions. So,what my hubby doesn't know or hasn't seen me do much of anything except on weekends when it comes to exercising, he didn't feel I was doing much to lose weight. But to his amazement last night, I showed him differently.
But, before my family and I went on our walk, I had dropped something on the floor of the car, and as I leaned down to retrieve it, I noticed and mentioned how much easier it was for me to do so without struggle. My husband kind of smirked when i stated it, but I told him that I had struggled in the past to do things such as that. But now being able to do so with less resistance made me proud to be where I am today, no matter how minor it is. He told me that I am doing a good job and to keep it up.
I may still be overweight, but I am starting to do things that I haven't been able to do in 10 years. That says so much to what I have been doing. My hubs has been asking me for the past two years to go for a bike ride every night when I get home from work, but I kept saying, "not right now, not ready for that yet." He would roll his eyes and tell me that I will not accomplish my weight loss goal if I don't just try. The last time I went on a bike ride, I was nervous because of the weight issue and not feeling quite comfortable to do so. But what he didn't know is that I was preparing myself for the end of June to get myself on that bike and head out on an adventure with him and the kids. The time is getting near and I am getting so amped up to get going. Still nervous, but I set the goal as well as a weight loss goal by my birthday, which is next week, that now is the time to go. I can't wait to go riding.
My future is looking brighter and brighter every day and couldn't be more thankful for the life that was given to me and how God has pulled me through my struggles. I owe it all to Him, I am truly blessed with all that I have. Today, yes, is a good day!!!