Strong Enough to Start Again...Maybe
Thursday, June 22, 2017
It is hard to believe I have not been on Spark since the beginning of the New Year. I just disappeared, I know. The end of 2016 turned out to be completely overwhelming as we visited specialists regarding my kids. I began the year grieving so hard and trying to cope with a lifestyle change that I never signed up for. I love my kids, I am scared for them and each day presents with so many challenges that I get overwhelmed. I have let my health go and I know that I need to get back on the wagon, because I am only making it worse.
I started seeing a counselor several weeks ago and he told me to put food and dieting on the back burner for just a little bit. My anxiety and depression were consuming me. I am doing a lot better. They had to adjust my thyroid meds again and it really makes things difficult but I am getting through. I am actually pretty lost as to where to start my healthy journey again because I am averaging so little sleep because of my son (Severe nonverbal Autism). They started both my kids on sleeping meds in December, unfortunately they did not work for my son. My daughter is finally sleeping full nights after six years of life.
Summer time tends to be more relaxed and I think it is a good time to focus on me again. I need to be healthy so I am around for a long time. To my friends, sorry for MIA. To new friends, keep plugging.