Jesus Take the Wheel

I was kind of skimming through my past blogs and realized that I recognize I'm basically a yoyo. My posts are how awesome I'm doing, mixed with real life struggles, how difficult things have been, how happy I am, how miserable, I admit repeatedly that I will follow a program perfectly and just randomly quit following it. I say I'm exhausted, but in reality I'm exhausting! I can't even keep up with my emotional state and I'm me!

I keep trying to put things off. Right now I have no excuse to do that. I was laid off on May 5th. It's now June 6th and I don't start my new job until July 10th. Money is tight, but walking is free. My kids are happy to have me home, but I think it's mainly because I let them get away with murder when it's just me.

I'm looking for inspiration and motivation wherever I can find it. I'm just hurting myself. I have put my faith in God constantly for guidance. I get that I'm probably supposed to self inspire and self motivate, but sometimes we need a little help. I'm gonna put my effort in, but at this point I'm leaving it on Jesus to take the wheel. I need some serious steering and intervention. Otherwise I'll steer myself right into the bakery at the grocery store across the street!

If anyone reads this, drop me some of your motivation in the comments! Pretty please!