Know better, do better
Tuesday, June 06, 2017
It started sneaking up on me. Vague tiredness, heavy feeling, and feeling like I couldn't pull myself together. I thought it was the stress of working and taking classes. Perhaps, even depression stemming from the passing of loved ones. By February I could no longer keep up. I just wasn't sure why.
Looking back it all makes sense. My absence from life (other than work and school), was a decline in my thyroid functioning. I should have been more proactive. When my weight seemed to be going up for no reason, falling asleep on a dime despite my treatment for sleep disorder, I should have gotten a clue. However, by February, I started playing the avoiding game. In my mind there was only one reason I was gaining weight. That reason was me.
Now I know better. I waited to long to go to the doctor. Now I am diabetic, too. I will have no regrets though. If I focus on my poor decisions, I will not be able to get back on track and get stuck. The good thing about thyroid disease and diabetes is that they are both threatable and manageable. With my additional credentialing and 2nd year teahing in my new district, I hope things will get easier. I hope my stress will go down and I will be able to manage my health better.
Now that I know better, I will do better. I am planning on biking to summer school. It is three miles one-way. I started my new medication yeaterday, and know the next few days will see improvement in my health. I will definitely follow my eating plan and treatment plan my doctor gives me. No more hiding and delaying visits. Looking back, I realize how dangerous my bouts with the flu were given undiagnosed diabetes and thyroid malfunctioning. I am lucky things worked out in my favor. Now that I know better, I will do better.