Sunday....letting go of some venting.
Sunday, June 04, 2017
So far today I have been busy cleaning my house and getting it ready for another family to come and see it....and hopefully be the ones that want to buy it. At this point our house has been on the market for a little over a month and the pressure is starting to build. The only good thing is that my house is literally the cleanest it has ever been. It is like a constant state of picking up and cleaning every day.
While I love it cleaned to the max, it is also a pain in my bum. I say that because I am the one that cleans the house while the rest of the family picks up their rooms (with me going in behind them). And please someone explain to me why and how my grown son's room smells like total FUNK 24/7?? I just do not understand the smells that come from his room, it really is gross. So I have to have candles and sprays on hand just for that! Heaven forbid anyone actually go through their rooms and start tossing junk out. SMH
So I'm stressed, and with stress comes eating and depression for me. I'm stressed that my house isn't clean enough, I'm stressed because I have more responsibilities at work now, I'm stressed because of my daughters graduation and now I'm stressed that this house won't sell. To top it all....I feel like I can't even talk to my husband about any of this because he is Mr. Moody-pants right now which means I have to be the one that is positive and up beat.
Bottom line....I'm tired of it all!!
I just feel like it is never my time to voice my worries and concerns and when I do I just get the roll of the eyes. I complain about one of my step son's leaving food on the floor after he eats, or at the table...because again, it would be SO hard to clean up after yourself...but all I get in return is nothing said to them and Hubby cleans up the mess. And it is not like I'm talking about a little child. I'm talking about a boy that is 27 years old here! (side note once said child moves out I will be bringing paper plates and silverware to eat with in his house! As I know how much him and his GF DO NOT clean!)
I really did not start this blog to vent, but maybe it was what I needed. I can't keep bottling all this up and only complaining to my BFF about these things. Not that she would complain about me venting to her, which is what makes her the best! I just need to start getting it out more and stop letting it eat me alive to the point that I'm then hiding behind the food and no workouts. Heck I haven't even gotten in my workout yet today because I had to clean and now I am waiting on people to see the house. But I will be getting it in after I go grocery shopping. Hopefully I will also be able to get in my 10,000 steps while I shop, with only cleaning the house I'm sitting at like 2,000 right now. If need be I will go up to the gym and hit the treadmill...not going to let today end without hitting it!
So lets end this with some positive notes.....I found my print out of the T25 calendar so I have that hanging on my fridge. So far I have not checked off the "nailed it" box on the workouts because I have struggled in each workout. But that is ok because even with hitting pause here and there I am not giving up and finishing it. It will be great to see how far I have come at the end of the program. The program is set for 5 weeks, however I'm getting it done in 4 weeks. Tomorrow I will start week 2 and fill in the two missing days from week 1 next weekend. This way I will finish the program in June.
In the middle of July a new workout program called Shift Shop comes out and I cannot wait to start that one. I love that it is only a 3 week program. A few of my friends are in the test program for it right now and the results in the first 3 weeks have been amazing. I really feel that this is going to be the program that I need to help get me to my goals. And with not needing a lot of equipment it will be something that I can take with me to our shore vacation at the end of Aug. I just know if I work hard and dial in my nutrition from now to our vacation in Aug I will be heading to the shore in the best shape I have been in for years. That thought alone makes me so excited.