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Taking a Short Workout Break

Monday, May 22, 2017

I am going through a period of depression. This is not surprising considering all I'm going through right now. I have spent so much of the last 72 hours crying and trying to figure out my life. The good news is when I'm crying I don't eat. Today is supposed to be my heaviest workout day, but I was so upset this morning I couldn't motivate myself to do anything physically active. Instead I went to Panera and worked on my cookbook for 2 hours. The theme of my cookbook is healthy recipes with exotic flavors.

I've sort of decided that finishing this cookbook is going to be my primary objective. I NEED to do this for myself. It's the jumping off point for the next period of my life. And I'm going to shop it to publishers. The very worst thing that can happen is they say no thanks. And if that doesn't work out I'm going to try crowd sourcing it at

The point is, this has been my dream since I was a little girl. I've chose practicality over my passions for 36 years and while I want to be financially independent I have to work on what I love, and hopefully money will come from that endeavor. I let myself be talked out of culinary school, and an orange car (resale value my ass, I've had my car 11 years), and making my own soap. Well you know what? EFF IT. Publishing a cookbook has been a lifelong desire of mine. Actually publishing it with a legit publisher. And I'm going to try my ASS off to make that happen. I CAN DO THIS.

And tomorrow I get right back on that exercise horse.
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