Saturday, May 20, 2017
I saw the OB yesterday. Lillian Rose looks good. Unfortunately, I've developed gestational diabetes on top of the anemia. This pregnancy seems to be especially hard on me. I'll be making an appointment with a nutritionist and the high risk doctor next week. I am NOT happy about this. At this rate, I just want it to be October. I want my daughter to be here. I want my body to go back to normal so I can quit taking fistfuls of pills,and take care of my body the way I know how.
I find all of this mortifying.
I feel like in this pregnancy, I'm at high risk for breathing. My age - "advanced maternal age". The order for my ultrasound actually has me down as ELDERLY. My God, I'm 36, not 90! My epilepsy. Most doctors have no idea how to handle it, so I'm automatically high risk. My Weight. BMI is over 30. *sighs* Anemia. And now this??? And on top of it, my daughter doesn't seem to like dairy. Do you have any idea how hard it is to avoid dairy???? Mostly I've been ignoring it and having a soda to help with the gas that comes from having it.
I don't even WANT to eat. It's too complicated. I've been having tons of eggs and orange juice. Baby Lilian seems to love those. But the only way I can HAVE the eggs is hard boiled, because the other 2 ways I like them - scrambled, and as a fried egg sandwich - I always have cheese on them!!!!
I set up my Spark tracker as diabetic, and it's so complicated. I now have specific goals for each MEAL calorie wise, not just the day.