Been gone a long time.......
Sunday, May 14, 2017
I came here in 2010 and I lost a total of 79 pounds. I left in 2015 and gained it all back.
I promised myself I wouldn't do that. I promised myself that I would maintain what I had gained -- smaller clothes, better health, fitter heart and lungs, stronger muscles, a leaner body, and a more youthful appearance. I was 44 at the time....I looked like I was in my early 30s.
And so, my clothes are the same size they were when I started 7 years ago. I let stress and depression, disappointment, and disillusion with others affect me. My small changes begin tomorrow at 6 am.
Healthy breakfast -- no more fast food drive thru because it is quick and convenient. Water, no more tea with fake sweeteners. A healthy lunch and NO stopping on the way home for a "snack". The gym will be next...... gotta figure out how to put it into my schedule.
I need to see my doctor again. I haven't been in a long time. Mostly because I was mad at him for ignoring my pleas about stress and depression, and my fear that I would wind up right where I am now. He and I will have to come to terms with our failures..... his to me and mine to myself.
Wish me luck.