On Starting Over (again)
Friday, May 12, 2017
...yeah, I've been here before. Yeah, it kind of sucks. Last time I was here, five years ago, I even wrote a blog post describing exactly how I once again feel. fuchsiagetsfit.blogspot.
I told myself, I have it in writing, that I'd never come back here. And yet, here I am. I'll be honest. It's frustrating. It sucks. I hate it.
I can dwell on that, and say it's pointless, and I should just give up entirely. Or I can use that to look at my mistakes: what did I do wrong, what was out of my control, what can I prevent from happening again? There are a lot of factors that add up to me being back at my starting point. Moving, money, depression, injuries. They're all excuses I leaned on, saying it was fine that I was backsliding because these things were out of my control. But you know what? I'll be honest: they were just excuses. I've lost weight while navigating most of those hurdles. Hell, losing weight and working out has helped a couple of those things.
So I can look back, and say "What's the point?" or I can look back and say "I've done it before, I can learn from my mistakes and do it again". It's all about perspective. I've been here before. I know I can do this again. How about you?