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Depression and anxiety

Monday, May 01, 2017

Good evening ladies and gents. I have battled with depression my whole life. It usually revolves around my weight. Many of you know I got the gastric sleeve done in November. I have dropped quite a bit of weight and I still am fighting to get to a healthy weight. Last week I drew the Line with my mental health. I have been on antidepressants since 2015 after my aunt passed. I took control and have gotten off of them. I feel clear again. I know everyone has ups and downs and life is not easy. I feel like the antidepressants were causing my brain more harm than good. The thoughts I was having were troubling me. I even thought it was NORMAL to not want to be alive. Getting though life one step at a time not wanting to get out of bed. It was the side effects from too much medication is my belief. I know some of you are reading this cringing thinking she quit this cold turkey? I am a week free from antidepressants as of today although I am taking a antianxiety drug as needed. My last one of these was almost a week ago. Although I do use these when my migraines hit as well. I work on the medical field and I am seeing a counciler. They monitor me close. I am proud to say I feel better. The thoughts of not caring and not wanting to be alive are gone. I am thankful to be alive and I am thankful I have a amazing support system around me in my time of need. If you suffer from this you are not alone. Thoughts of not wanting to be alive and not wanting to live are not normal. Seek counciling or therapy. Happy thoughts Jennifer
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  • NANTUCKETLIFE
    I am very proud of you Jennifer for sharing this. That takes a lot of strength. I am glad that you are getting monitored closely. Unfortunately, antidepressants can cause suicidal idealizations. I am glad that you recognized this and took action. You are not alone with depression and anxiety. I too have issues. Keep up the amazing work because you are so worth it. Kathi
    596 days ago
  • SIMPLY_JAE
    I hope everything continues well for you.
    991 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Proud of you that you took steps to feel better! That takes courage. YOu have it.
    991 days ago
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