A 90-Day Check-in (Warning: Downer!)
Monday, May 01, 2017
I recently passed a 90 day login streak. I've been pretty frustrated because the scale is not moving. So this morning when I checked in and saw that it's day 93, I figured I'd go look back three months and see all my fantastic progress and feel better because hey slow and steady is good and I'm just focusing too much on the current plateau and certainly the numbers will look good over three months.
I've lost two freaking pounds in three months. This.is.ridiculous. Granted, losing two pounds is better than gaining anything, but still. IT SHOULD NOT BE THIS HARD.
I'm going back to the RD today, but honestly I'm not seeing results and am less inclined to go back after this. She for some reason hasn't wanted to do the metabolic testing. If she doesn't agree to it today, I'm out. I went to an RD because I wanted some kind of *science* to back me up. I really think my resting metabolic rate is like 7 calories a day, I swear. I'll outlive everyone in a famine! But in the absence of famine, I'm basically screwed.
I've averaged 1538 calories per day over the past month. Sure, my goal is 1500 so apparently 38 calories a day is the difference between losing weight and not? How is my body that sensitive?
Long term health, keep up the good work, it'll happen blah blah blah, I'm obviously just REALLY REALLY frustrated right now.
OK, enough with the Debbie Downer post. I'm not going to stop trying. At the very least, I'm going to keep these 21 pounds off. I am not going to get depressed and eat my feelings this time. I'm going to eat my stupid kale and my stupid protein shakes. hahahaha Clearly I need an attitude adjustment right now.