Starting Again

So, I have been battling my weight for what seems a thousand years. I've committed on and off for probably 3 or 4 years (not a strong commitment obviously), but it has occurred to me for almost the last year, just how out of shape I am. I lost my job in June after 10 years because it was cheaper to pay 2 other people, and couldn't find another job. First time being let go, and at my age, talk about a blow to your ego, then having to admit that your not in shape, double whammy. I have struggled on and off since June to do this. I have been on my Spark page and tracking so in consistently, I think more so I wouldn't feel like I failed. I have lost 45 pounds and that made me super happy! Buying clothes and wearing clothes I never thought I would again, back to having hair done, wearing my make up again and even went back to training dogs. Still, felt like I was letting my family down. Then came the weight gain and trying to lose again. So today, I woke up with the strong determination that I am going to do this....I am going to get in the best shape and health of my life! No more excuses, no more, sadness, or anger, starting today, I am eating right, exercising, taking care of me without guilt. Today, I did a 1 mile bike ride with my GSD, Jynx in 6 minutes and 25 minutes of Yoga. I drank my water and moving on to getting ready for my day. I'm not sure what you are supposed to put in a blog, but for me, it's going to become my very public diary, the good, the bad and the ugly. Hoping that having to be more accountable, I will stay strong and on track.