Thursday, April 27, 2017
Well, it has either been stolen or it just up and walked away. I have looked everywhere for it. It does not seem to be anywhere. I can't believe that I let something that is that important get away from me. What was it that I can't find that is so important? My motivation. I still have quite a bit of weight to lose and my motivation is gone. Poof! Disappeared. Even the thoughts of better health is not bringing my motivation back. When it comes to this weight loss journey, I am hopelessly lost. I feel like my map is gone. One problem is that I am not even sure when it disappeared. Sadly, I did not even notice that my motivation was gone. Then yesterday, I noticed that something was missing in my life. That was the moment I realized that it was gone. I felt so lost and sad. How could I forget about something that is so important in my life? I became so comfortable with my journey that I took my motivation for granted. I did not take care to remember the reasons I was doing this. I had a vision board. That was enough, wasn't it? Apparently not. Like so many things in our lives, I did not take care of it, and it disappeared.
Now what? Do I forget about my weight loss journey and think about how I have failed? Because I did, you know. I failed to keep my motivation. Should I just leave it alone and hope it comes back on its own? Sorry, but no. I think that it is time to put on my battle armor and prepare for war. I am going to hunt down my motivation and bring it back home to me, kicking and screaming if I have to. I will seek to destroy any tendency to take my motivation for granted again. I will have a new vision board, with more focus on motivation. Will my motivation leave me again? Probably. Everyone needs a break every now and then. Will I let my motivation disappear like it has done? I certainly hope not. However if it does choose to disappear again, I will be ready with my battle armor, ready to fight for it again.