Saturday, April 22, 2017
It's odd that I used to set goals when I was younger. Big goals about life and accomplishments and paths I would take. Then a year ago my life changed. Major life changes that involved people I thought were part of my goals. It was a very life altering time and took me through a series of decisions that have brought me to this point. Now I look back on the last year and my only goal has been to be better than who I was. Stronger. It's a slow process. Setting goals has made a big difference.
A few months ago I decided to start at the gym doing a bootcamp class. Not my usual exercise, but something had to have the energy and frustration I was dealing with. I was casual at times about it. I guess I would say I gave 80% most days. Sometimes 100%, but that was rare. I had all the excuses and even more fears. I would get into a routine and then backtrack. Skip a few classes...no big deal. This went on for a while. Then I got sick and hurt. I was out of the gym for 5 weeks. I realized during that time of healing that I really missed the gym and my fellow bootcampers. After my hiatus, I set the goal to make the class 3 nights a week. That went on for several weeks. Small steps again and I found myself getting scared again. Do I back down once more? I needed to make a decision.
I am happy to report that that goal has turned into something good. I am 5 weeks into my new found determination to exercise a minimum of 5 times a week. I have committed to seeing this through so I signed up with a personal trainer, Once a week he encourages me to push myself beyond limits I even knew I had. He's got me running! He's got me power lifting! Most importantly he has got me setting goals and believing in myself. Gone is that person who struggled with life a year ago. Almost gone. She lingers in there reminding me that I am human and make mistakes. But she's much stronger than she was thanks to some goals set and accomplished.
Next goal......run another 5k and shave 3 minutes off. I am determined!