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Learning to live with body image issues.

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Now that I'm getting closer to my goal weight, not there yet though. I'm having problems with body image what I see and what others see are two totally different things. And the sad realization is that I know I have a problem it is driving me crazy and family and friends too. I still see the 3 extra large t-shirt size twenty four pants gal that was me, she still looks back at me from the mirror. This to me is a whole new battle ,your mind is the worst enemy you can have, no matter how much my wonderful husband and children tell me I look small, my mind tells me otherwise. I know my family loves me and supports me all the way . But I am my own worst enemy. It saddens me but until I can get a hold on this I still put my family though crap. I feel so alone even though I am not . I just keep telling myself they don't understand they've never gone through the self loathing , hating everything about yourself, wishing you where anyone but you.I fear that I will never shake the fat me from my mind . I also know I am not alone when it come to thinking this way there are so many of us out there, that live with our on personal kind of demons , I hope they also have family or friends that stand by them.
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    emoticon I really like this picture of you. You look so different from the ones you posted a year ago. You might not feel it, but you do look like you're feeling better about yourself. As I've learned in therapy, "fake it till you make it".
    1542 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/8/2017 1:37:01 PM
  • LME412
    You are a beautiful woman, now and then - inside and out!
    1562 days ago
    Kick those voices to the curb! You have accomplished so much on this journey, you can't let the inner voices win this. You arm yourself with positive, affirming things to say back to them. Post affirmations on your bathroom mirror, on the steering wheel of your car, on the refrigerator door - anywhere you will see them. Say them out loud - shout them if you have to! You are strong. You are smart. You are beautiful!!! You can win! emoticon
    1565 days ago
    It takes time to get used to the changes that happen with weight loss. so, you're not alone.
    1565 days ago
  • no profile photo XRAYGAL07
    Yes I've been there too, but it does get better. Gotta stay positive and keep up the great work!
    1565 days ago
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