Realizing a dependency
Saturday, April 08, 2017
So the idea of "put down the wine" is much harder than I thought it would be. I always believed I could quit anytime. I don't think I'm ready for AA yet, but I definitely have a psychological dependency on drinking. Maybe it's giving me the sugar I crave. I don't get a buzz from it. I like the taste. But... it must stop. So I need some good ol' Freudian sublimation... a substitute for my time when I usually drink. It's only at night and it seems that exercise would keep me awake (or is that a myth?). I'm an avid crafter - that may be the answer. I've got scrapbooks to make. Working on that a bit would take me away from temptation, but it also might keep me awake. I don't get home from work until 10:30 PM, and sometimes 11:00. I work crazy hours and every day is different. I'm off on Fridays. I have my craft room, and I have a home gym, and a membership to Planet Fitness. Those are all physical things to do, but the psychological cravings are so very strong. Has anyone else tried to quit a destructive habit like smoking or drinking by themselves? I do have a therapist and a hypnotherapist who are trying to help me, but it comes down to me. Am I strong enough? Or am I a lost cause?