Developing a New ME
Thursday, April 06, 2017
Yesterday I went to Quilt Club, and today went to Caregiver's Support Group. I feel quite proud of myself for getting out.
What my REAL intentions are is to hibernate. That is not good.
I must begin to develop myself into a new way of living.
Another example: I had a grocery list with me and pulled in to Costco. It was too crowded, and I didn't even get out of the car. Drove to Safeway instead.
I learned that I have to buy in smaller quantities now. Instead of the big stuff at Costco, I did my shopping for me and Benny.
Example 2: Costco has these really big jars of peanut butter, packed in twos. I bought a small jar at Safeway instead. I have no idea as to how long it would take me to go through 2 big jars, even though, ounce per ounce, the Costco was a bit cheaper.
Example 3: I was out of grapes, and Costco sells these really BIG packages of grapes. So I bought a "me" size at Safeway for a higher price, but at least I won't be throwing them away because they got too old.
Example 4: Instead of getting the 2-in-1 gallons of milk at Costco, I bought only 1 gallon at Safeway. Cheaper than having it spoil because it sat for too long.
Got home and had three messages. One from the Crematorium, one from DD saying it is a day where it is really hard for her not to swear, and one from a tree guy who wants to set up an appointment to come and top some of the huge trees on the property.
I'll get to all of them after I have a bit of lunch.
Life is very strange when one of the "couple" is no longer here. I never thought of the grocery buying being different. It just never crossed my mind.
A lot of things I took for granted have to be reassessed. Little things, mostly.
Life is starting to be too fast for me right now. A whole lot of things need doing and attention that I never before considered.
I guess that means life goes on, and that I will adjust.
I still have Benny to walk, YeowLing to take care of, and figure out how to stop going in circles. Everyone says "It gets easier", and I don't know if I should believe them.
I just know that I must keep going.
You Sparkies have been so very kind and attentive. You have no idea how much you have helped me get through all this. I know I am not alone, although it feels like that.
I will keep on keeping on.