So I was just looking back over my last blog, which I published almost of month ago. My how that month has been a wild ride!
I am Bipolar Type 1. What I didn't realize until a week ago is that I have been manic for all of Lent and for some time before Lent even started. I kept brushing my symptoms off until I came to the stark realization a week ago that I just was not okay. So I made an appointment with my psychiatrist and saw him last week, and we are in the process of adjusting my meds. Among trying to get the mania to die down, we are also trying to get me to sleep more and for longer periods of time. Since changing my meds last Wednesday, I have been sleeping almost an hour more per night, from 5-6 hours to 6-7 hours. I'm still not sleeping enough, but it is progress. I have also seen my ability to concentrate improve drastically this weekend. I have not been able to read AT ALL (and I LOVE to read) for the past two months, and I was able to lay in bed this morning and read for about 10 minutes. So that's some huge progress. I'm going to try to repeat this every morning and night for 10 minutes until I can gradually get the length of time I read up. The other thing that I was able to do this weekend was to craft. I was going to a women's lenten retreat where we have a speaker, and as much as I was looking forward to it, I was also dreading it because I knew I wasn't going to be able to sit there for long blocks of time and just listen. So, I had started a Pascha (Easter) basket cover that I am embroidering, and I took that, and I sat in the back of the church and just embroidered and listened. Not only did I get stuff out of the lecture (it was on strong women in the Bible and how that relates to Orthodoxy--I liked the parts on Abigail and Esther the most), but I got lots of embroidery done.
This is the Orthodox cross at the center of the cloth. I got most of it done on Friday.
This is one of the corners that I worked on all day yesterday. It's not quite finished, as you can tell. The "leaf" like motifs will be in black.
So I still have a long ways to go (3 more corners), but I am hopeful that I can finish it in the next two weeks. This is also my first shot at embroidery, and my lines aren't super straight, but I do really like how it's coming out.
Oh, and my weight! So at the start of Lent, I was at my highest weight ever: 208.5. My goal for Lent was not to loose, but to not gain anymore. One step at a time, right? As of two weeks ago, I was down to 202.5, so 6 pounds lost. I am very happy with that. I would like to be 200 by Easter, and then after that work on starting to exercise again, track my food better, and actually lose some weight.
So progress all around. I'm still manic because I'm still moody and prone to fits of anger, but I will call my psychiatrist again in a couple of days and talk with him and we will keep adjusting my meds. It may take quite a while to get me really stabilized again. For right now, I'm just happy with the progress I made this weekend.