WooHoo! This morning I weighed 123.6, the second lowest weigh-in of my adult life, 88.4 pounds below my all time high. 123.2 in May of 2015 was my lowest.
Yesterday I sucked it in and stretched tall to camouflage my muffin top, and posted a picture flattering to my middle. That works, but gee, then I have to breath. Yep, I'm the same weight but softer in the middle than I was the last time I was this weight. My recurring back issue has messed with my strength training. That and age has meant a softer middle, I suppose. I was tempted to post my picture with muffin top to show my readers, but vanity. I had deleted the pudgy ones!
I have the occasional thought that a little lipo and skin removal would make a big difference. And then I look at the pictures and think if I were to do some surgery a neck and facelift would do more for my overall appearance and my batwings could use some work, too. Truth is, I am vain. But not vain enough to want surgery. I am 67 years old. It's okay.
And there is something fun about looking kind of old, almost frail, and then running like the wind and surprising everyone younger racing around my pace. The dyed hair runners don't get that laugh as often as I do! So that is an advantage of looking my age.
Back in 2014 I tried intuitive eating for 11 months, rarely tracking, just trying to eat right. My conclusion was that if I want to maintain around 135 pounds with a week of "dieting" maybe twice or three times a year when I go over 135, I can do that. There is something appealing about peace with food. But I am too vain. I like being smaller.
To be smaller I must track. My best weight management is when I pre-plan my eating and then stick to the plan. I would love not to have to work so hard at it, but now is not the time to back off. I am going to try to maintain at this weight or a pound less. It's going to be work. I don't have packaged meals now and haven't for two weeks. I spend time planning, cooking, and deciding what calories are worth eating. Measuring and portion control are key. I must prepare for holidays, visitors, changes in schedule, and emotionally challenging times that could derail me. Don't want a repeat of October-December 2016 when I gained primarily due to emotional eating.
So we have determined that I am vain. How can I use that vanity to help me manage my weight?
1. Remember that soft middle and prioritize my physical therapy to stretch and strengthen my back so that I will be able to go on to tighten my abs. I've been doing my PT, but not as consistently as I could.
2. Remember that soft middle as I work to develop meal plans and a routine that truly
will support me at this weight. Stick to my SparkPeople nutrition ranges. I am considering seeing an RD or nutritionist for a plan specific to me.
3. Vanity is one of my motivations for running. But the joy of running is an even bigger motivator!
4. Take the time to look better -- like, make up more often. Better clothes selection. Fix my hair better and more often. Manicures. Pedicures. Maybe a facial. But don't let that vanity interfere with working out. When I feel like I look good it is easier to eat right!
5. Accept the aging process. I can still look good for my age, just like I run good for my age!
6. And when I get maintenance down for this weight, and I know what/how much to eat to maintain, and am doing it consistently, then it will be time to emphasize routine and true peace with food. Vanity will take a backseat, because it will just be who I am. It may never be easy. Okay, it will always be challenging. But I can do it. It is worth it. And looking good, vanity, is a major motivator.
Health is paramount. But I suspect 135 pounds is just as healthy for me as 123 pounds. Vanity is what motivates the lighter weight. So be it!!