Am I really hungry or could it be something else??
Tuesday, March 21, 2017
I believe I had a big awareness occur recently. I found I kept wanting to eat something when I was getting busy doing something. Especially paperwork late at night that I really didn’t want to do.
Realizing this was killing my ability to keep calories low at night I asked a nutritionist if there was something natural I could take that would stop my hunger. She told me about HOODIA, which is supplement from a cactus plant in the desert. Cheap and easy to find. Sure enough, I found it did a good job of getting rid of the hunger. YET, oddly I still wanted and craved going and getting something to eat.
After some careful self-analysis, I realized, with a big ah ha moment, that I was not wanting to eat because I was hungry, I wanted to eat to CREATIVELY AVOID having to do the paperwork. I realized I told myself I couldn’t stand the thought of admitting I was avoiding work , and couldn’t handle it, so I would create a reason strong enough to justify not doing it and along came eating.
I have since realized I use eating quite frequently to creatively avoid doing something.
So now what do I do? I found that instead of eating I take the time it would take to go and get something to eat ( stare at what’s in the fridge, fix it and then eat it) and I simply go for a walk outside for the same amount of time ( not long) I would use to do my creative avoidance eating ritual.
I now make it a point to find something to look at I have never taken time to study, look at it close, ponder its amazing existence and do my best to understand what it takes for it to be what it is.
I find now I eat a lot less, enjoy the benefits of fresh air, and appreciate nature and our world a whole lot more. I also realized my world is much less stressful than what many other parts of nature may have to experience. Instead of telling myself I am hungry I am giving thought to how amazing nature is and how fortunate I am to be who I am. I get a LOT more done and don’t regret as much what I have do to in my world.