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Breathe

Sunday, March 19, 2017

I was checking for inspirational quotes and I came across "Breathe"! I remember I would always use this saying and it seems I need to go back to it because I feel that I am overwhelmed and not breathing! I can honestly say that I am feeling lost and do not know where to go! emoticon
Over the last fewer years I have taken over so many responsibilities that I feel I am failing myself and therefore I can't help everyone the way I should.
I have been my mom's caretaker for quite sometime and I love her and will continue to do this until she is gone. I have hired someone to check on her when I can't and she has been so helpful but I still feel that I am neglecting her.
My in-laws have also been placed in a nursing but 5 hours from us and as much as we want to be there for them we can only go once a month
Then you have my house which is falling apart. I have so much clutter all around me that I can't stand it. On top of this when I do have a few moments of free time (rarely) I have no energy. I have thyroid problems which has my weight at its heaviest and this is making me more depressed. I have had some kind of cold, sore throat, etc. going on since November. I get better for a few days and then back again. Right now I have no voice and I am coughing my lungs out! emoticon Then on top of that I had a stiff neck for a whole week! Give me a break!
Oh! Work is not any easier. Although this is the one place that with my students I can laugh and forget my worries. However, there are other things going on that I just wish I could leave and stay home but I can't.
I need to write this down because I feel I have been carrying all this in my mind and I am feeling overwhelmed. emoticon
However, I do have a supporting husband and my oldest son is finishing his master's degree in May and my youngest, who has also had his share of health issues, will hopefully graduate college by the end of this year. So yes I am very lucky in that respect!!
However, there is still that part of me that feels like crying and throwing in the towel. Maybe now after seeing this in print I can dust myself up and look at things differently. emoticon

So as I said at the beginning I will start to "Breathe" and try to take control! emoticon
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  • JAZZEJR
    Oh, Bibi. I thought I would get a notice when you posted a blog... I guess not. You wrote this a month ago, so I am really hopeful that if you have been BREATHING for a month, you are in a better frame of mind by now. Sometimes we just have to admit that we are overwhelmed, then we can not expect so much of ourselves (as the guilt you feel that you cannot be the constant caregiver). It sounds as if you may be a bit too much down on Bibi. Give my friend a break, will you? She's only human and needs a little TLC herself. Give it to her! emoticon emoticon
    571 days ago
  • CHOOSEYOURHARDD
    Sometimes we all go into "survival" mode. When we have too many things to do to do them well, we want to crawl into a hole until it all goes away. Luckily, we usually get past these things after a time. If not, then we have to take a good hard look at our life and see what needs to be changed. Sometimes we have to say no. No, I will not. No, I can not. It is okay to just say no. Do what is right for you. Take time to vent. Sending good thoughts your way. emoticon
    603 days ago
  • SMILINGEYES2
    You have so much on your plate that it is understandable you feel overwhelmed st times. Sounds like you are doing great juggling all your responsibilities.
    604 days ago
  • NEVERORNOW
    What a lot of stuff you are dealing with, I think most of us would be feeling pretty much as overwhelmed as you are. emoticon It's good that you can still find the blessings in your life in spite of everything else. I'll be praying for you. It's good to see you here again, I'm glad you update us once in a while and hope you will continue to do so. emoticon
    604 days ago
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