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Life changing events

Saturday, March 11, 2017

There are moments in life that are so significant that you will always refer to time as before and after. I went to rehab in Jan 2015 I always refer to before rehab and after. I started to lose weight in April 2016 another time I refer to as before and after. The events of the last 2 weeks of my life will always be before and after. I relapsed bad.....my husband overdosed and was rushed to the hospital and very nearly died. My children were taken from my custody. Before and after. Through all of this I have managed to not lay down and die like I want to. I have managed to make a plan and do exactly what I need to be doing. My head is a jumbled mess, my feelings are raw, I physically feel the pain of loss in a way I never have. I started running again because it's all I can think about while I do it. It keeps my mind focused and occupied. I have a long road ahead of me. My God is working on my behalf ......my whole life changed in a moment a moment of weakness. Before and after. Friends addiction is not pretty .we want to pretend it's not a plague on our society but it is. It happens and sometimes it's the people you would least expect. You would never look at me and my husband and say oh they're addicts. I guess I just had to put it out there to people in a real way. So if you are the praying type please put my family at His feet or send good vibes my way. I am waiting for the after to happen.
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  • RECOVERYMAMA
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    I understand completely. I relapsed at 13 1/2 years clean, and it took a lot for me to get my head right after. I hope you have a home group that helps you, that has been fundamental for me in my recovery. Our HP never takes us to anything he is not going to carry us through, even when we make mistakes by our use of free will. Love you and prayers for you. I am here ANY time you want to talk. Also emailed you. That email goes directly to my phone and I will be watching for a message!
    Hugs and prayers. I believe in you. You can do this!
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    1490 days ago
  • BARBARAJ73
    Keeping you and your family in my prayers - emoticon
    1503 days ago
  • OHTAFFYWHITE
    Blessing to you and your family. The road ahead may be long but change will come. Put one foot in front of the other.
    1503 days ago
  • DEAFGROSS
    Praying for the strength you need as you continue on your life journey.🙏
    1503 days ago
  • no profile photo APPLEGREENGIRL
    The after will happen. I'm putting your family at His feet. Bless you.
    1503 days ago
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