Life changing events

There are moments in life that are so significant that you will always refer to time as before and after. I went to rehab in Jan 2015 I always refer to before rehab and after. I started to lose weight in April 2016 another time I refer to as before and after. The events of the last 2 weeks of my life will always be before and after. I relapsed bad.....my husband overdosed and was rushed to the hospital and very nearly died. My children were taken from my custody. Before and after. Through all of this I have managed to not lay down and die like I want to. I have managed to make a plan and do exactly what I need to be doing. My head is a jumbled mess, my feelings are raw, I physically feel the pain of loss in a way I never have. I started running again because it's all I can think about while I do it. It keeps my mind focused and occupied. I have a long road ahead of me. My God is working on my behalf ......my whole life changed in a moment a moment of weakness. Before and after. Friends addiction is not pretty .we want to pretend it's not a plague on our society but it is. It happens and sometimes it's the people you would least expect. You would never look at me and my husband and say oh they're addicts. I guess I just had to put it out there to people in a real way. So if you are the praying type please put my family at His feet or send good vibes my way. I am waiting for the after to happen.