Because of today's article
and all the good information on what it really is to have a lifestyle change, I have decided to put it in writing that my weight, after one year of trying to take it off, will be my maintenance weight. I have already sort of decided this back in January, but without putting it out anywhere in writing, I gave myself an out to fail. I don't want to fail. I also have no delusions of grandeur either. I did not have 100 pounds to lose, and starting at under 200 meant that my losses would be smaller to begin with. I did have 50 pounds to lose, however, and with some smart choices and attainable and maintainable goals, I should reasonably expect to lose 5 pounds a month. 5x12=60, right? And since I know I have some pretty bad eating habits over the last 45 years to overcome, I should be able to lose 50 within a year.
This falls into the small losses that the article speaks of, and to read of all the other people who have had large slow losses and how long they have been able to keep it off, that is what I want. Can you imagine losing 100 pounds and keeping it off for over 16 years? Phenomenal. These are the people I want to see on reality tv. The people who are actually making decent life choices, reaching their goals, and being able to maintain the lifestyle for life. I liked biggest loser, but when I started reading about how every one gained the weight back and why, I had to say good bye. I still watch My 600 Pound Life, and I cheer those people on when they start to get their aha moment and start making the good choices to lose the weight. I also like how Dr. Nowzaradan will make them see a therapist to help them heal from whatever drove them into that place of self hatred and seeking food for comfort, And I like when they show the where are they now, and so many of them have still kept the weight off. These are who we need to be cheering on, from the tv, and in person.
I also know that after carrying around my post baby flab for 20 years, my stomach will never go flat. I am ok with that. I also will not wear spanx. I think I will look just fine with little leftover belly. I created life with that thing, I earned it. It will just be smaller and cause far less back pain. I may always have a bit of a double chin, and I am ok with that. It is genetic and it helps me look more like my mom. It will be smaller than it is now, but its family and it will be welcome. I may never fully get my thighs to separate, and that is ok, because they are strong as all get out, they can walk for miles and miles, and they keep me upright. Besides, I don't wear "booty" shorts and who wants to see that on an almost 50 year old woman? So longer shorts that cover more thigh and help ease chub rub work for me.
I have always had good self esteem, regardless of the slings and arrows tossed my way. I can only imagine by December it will be just as strong, if not a bunch stronger. And as a strong self confident woman, I can be supportive and loving and eager to toss compliments to other women I come across. I am beautiful and strong and smart and so are you.