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Temper Tantrum

Monday, March 06, 2017

I've got the mindset of a petulant toddler today: I don't wanna fill my water bottle -- I don't wanna go to taekwondo tonight -- I don't wanna eat healthy and track everything -- I DON'T WANNA!!

Keep in mind, I'm coming off a bit of a binge bender this weekend. Literally, (used correctly) I tracked none of my food yesterday in some fit of insolent rebellion against -- what, exactly? Being fitter? Healthier? Dear Lord, not that. Seriously, I'm trapped in some kind of pissy mood, and it sounds suspiciously like teenage rebellion as well as toddler-hood: Other people get to eat donuts at work, why can't I? Other people don't work out and fit in a size 6, why can't I?

Just writing this out, however, is giving me the giggles. The words are so foolish when I see them in print. How about this: I worked out today, so I DESERVE to eat lots of junk without tracking. Right... But I also deserve to be healthy and fit.

Sigh... How did I deal with cranky toddlers all those years ago? Meditate, get a cup of coffee, and just force a smile...a workout...a healthy dinner. I can do this. I only have to beat myself.
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    Good for you for giving your inner rebel voice. Sometimes she just needs to be heard.

    Ah yes ... the inner rebel. Know her well! I gave her the upper hand for decades, at my own expense. Now, don't get me wrong. There's wisdom contained in the voice and experience of that inner rebel. When she rears her head, I take notice. I just don't bow to her every whim. I am learning to listen better and assess her true need.
    743 days ago
    I feel the same way sometimes. Its stinking thinking that needs to be changed. I love that you wrote about all of the things that really,we all feel. Heck, I get jealous when my husband and I are working out together and eating healthy and he drops five pounds in a week while my weight stays the same. I don't get it and really its like comparing apples to oranges. I just want to get to a healthy weight again and out of the 200's. I am 205 pounds right now and I would love to be 145-150 pounds or so again. Its a dream that is kind of far off but its one that is worth eating healthy and doing the things I do whether I want to or not whether I like it or not . I have to be like nike and just do it. emoticon emoticon
    743 days ago
    Haha! This sounds like me sometimes! But yes, you're quite right to judge it as a bit of a silly attitude! Less comparing to others, more to what you could be yourself!
    744 days ago
    If it helps, remind yourself of all the other things you do regularly that you don't really want to do - cleaning your teeth, getting out of bed in the morning perhaps, housework, going to work... You don't ask yourself if you WANT to clean your teeth - you just get on and do it because you know it's necessary.

    Wanting or not wanting are in such cases irrelevant.

    Oh, and I've found playing with a soft, furry teddybear often cheers a fractious toddler. emoticon emoticon
    744 days ago
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    We're all entitled to a pissy-mood every now and then.............. now let's get back to being healthier! emoticon
    744 days ago
    I know how you feel! I go through that all the time. You seem to have a good head on your shoulders though so just force that smile, drink that coffee and get your butt to taekwondo!
    744 days ago
    Not doing, dipping.
    744 days ago
    These moods will come & go, mainly because of a sugar craving. Treat yourself to some good fat like olive oil for doing a slice of toast. It helps.
    744 days ago
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