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Sunday, March 05, 2017

So, for the 3rd week in a row, I have gained weight. Though I have been consistent with movement, my food has been less than on-point. Several happy hours, dinners out and an employee party found me undoing all of the progress I made in February and then some.

This morning, I'm working REALLY hard on reminding myself that weight is only one measurement of progress. Since I started slowly moving again in November, and then consistently moving in January, I've lost a pant size. Yesterday, someone commented that they could tell I had lost weight. I started to say, "Well it's only a couple pounds" but I stopped myself and simply said thanks. It's happening... just not at the pace I am used to or feel like is acceptable.

And that's another thing... feeling like this slow, or lose-and-gain pattern, isn't acceptable... I have to again challenge myself and ask if this is a kinder, more sustainable way than the ways I've utilized previously. Of course, it is. It's just insanely frustrating. And insanely slow.

I could go on and on. I'm going to consciously choose to stop.

I talked to my ED therapist last week about feeling like I need to start tracking my food again. I've been consistently writing down what I've eaten for a couple months, but I haven't been dealing with portions... I spent my energy making sure I was eating consistently instead. However, even with movement, I'm not making the weight-driven progress I want to make so I am going to try writing down my food this week and take an inside-look at nutrition again.

It's been a challenge to not lose steam and just give up. It's an active choice to keep trying.

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    761 days ago
  • ALOFA0509
    I'm back @ Spark & recommitting to tracking my food, moving & eating cleaner. It all sounds good but its a daily struggle! Ive followed you for as long as Ive been on Spark. Im off & on but I always come bk to Sprk! Get dat Bas Ass bandanna out grl😜
    775 days ago
  • PJH2028
    So so so happy to see you and feel connected in spirit and process. Love you
    776 days ago
  • PJH2028
    Hey p! I get it. I truly do. Re-framing Tracking is an ongoing meditation in my life. Attachment v nonattachment. With my ED history ,too, the WAY I live my motivation for results is a delicate balance. I want to see results. & full life too x
    776 days ago
    It's always a smart decision to track your food. Especially when you're not getting the results you want. Just remember that weight loss isn't always going to be a perfect downhill slope. It's okay to gain sometimes! As long as you are always working toward your goals you will find what works best for you & that will get you where you want to go.
    776 days ago
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    776 days ago
    Good for you for making an active choice to keep trying. We all know (most of us from first hand experience) what happens when we quit trying...

    I hope that paying more attention to portions will reverse the trend.

    emoticon on the pants size NSV! That always feels good.

    Keep MARCHing on!


    776 days ago
    It sure is a challenge but you'll figure it out. I have trouble on those social outings too. Congrats on keeping the movement going. One thing at a time... baby steps... it will all add up. emoticon
    777 days ago
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