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Bad day but I'm here....

Friday, March 03, 2017

Hello friends,

Not to be a downer, but I haven't been taking very good care of myself over the last couple of months because of the stresses over having to take this test.
Went to the doctor this morning and my blood pressure was sky high. They checked it 4 times and each time was way high. So they told me to get to my regular doctor as soon as possible.
Luckily she had an opening and could see me.
Both doctors suggest that I find another job to relieve some of the stress I've been under.
Easier said than done, especially at my age.

Get this, when I called my manager and told her what the first doctor told me, and that I was able to get an appointment to see my MD before noon, the first words out of her mouth were, "then you're going to make it in, right?" Uh.....NO!! Are you kidding me?! That's all you can say?! Where's the compassion?! Is that really how you think of me?! emoticon

Beginning today, i'm going to start taking better care of myself and stop stressing about this stupid test. MAYBE I'll be ready to take it before April 1st. Maybe not. I'm not going to let my bosses push me into something I know that I can't do.
And I have to figure out a way to get more and better sleep. Five to six hours a night is not enough.
Sorry to offload. If I don't start taking better care of myself, I'm not going to be here much longer. I know that. I've been in this position before and hated myself for it then. Now I hate myself for getting BACK in this position.
No excuses. Start slow. A little at a time. Change one bad habit at a time.
Thankfully, the liquid of choice is water. Cut back on the coffee and started drinking tea again, on and off. Eating at least 3 to 4 servings of fruit and 2 to 3 servings, most times more, of veggies daily.
Biggest problem is, I think, the lack of exercise cause I've been focusing all my energies on this STUPID test!! No more of that. I'll study when I feel I have the energy to study.
Work can just go to....

Anyway, I won't apologize again for going off. Think I needed it. DH has been worried about me. My DD has been worried about me. I haven't been listening to either of them because I was afraid that if I didn't get this test taken really soon work was going to make it harder on me than it already is. Guess what...I'm not going to take it, no matter what.
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  • GABIBEAR
    Your health is the most important thing Jules, without that nothing else will be there, so taking car of yourself is key for sure!!

    Gabi
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    618 days ago
  • BEFIT018
    emoticon for venting! I love when people say 'get another job' emoticon You are SO right--harder as you get older, no matter how many skills you have.

    Study when you can, take the test. If you pass emoticon , if you don't at least it's behind you. And if you have people worried about you then that should be a clue, my emoticon .

    Good luck in what ever you decide! emoticon


    619 days ago
  • JEANKNEE
    Sounds like the doctors have given some good advice. and you realize that you need more sleep. Don't under estimate the restorative power of sleep. See to it that you're getting it. emoticon
    620 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    good luck to you and YES take care of yourself.
    620 days ago
  • ELLACAMINA
    God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

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    620 days ago
  • 50YEARSAWIFE
    If you are not happy at your job, it touches everything in your life. Good luck with your test.
    621 days ago
  • NELLJONES
    I hope you manage to get through to your test in good health. It will soon be behind you.
    621 days ago
  • no profile photo KINILANI25
    Good for you!!! Take back your power and more importantly, your health.
    621 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/4/2017 5:00:29 AM
  • NEW-CAZ
    Everyone deserves to go to a job that at least they don't dread every Monday Morning.
    AS VIC522 said Life is too short!
    You have many transferable skills for other jobs Jules; so start looking!!
    You can lead, you've trained people, you're reliable, efficient, you can work to a time schedual to get things done on time, you've raised kids so you're able to balance different tasks all at once, and your of a generation that believes in being punctual!
    Any company should bite to get you to work for them.
    Finally you've shown dedication to a firm that REALLY doesn't deserve you

    YOU DESERVE BETTER!!

    Look after yourself now, baby steps.
    621 days ago
  • JUDITH316
    My dear friend, I want you to know I am here for you and I am praying, so sorry your boss didn't show the compassion you so deserve. I realize it is hard to find another job but one thing for sure I am praying the atmosphere and the people including your Boss will begin to be more understanding and show some compassion and support, you are far more important than those things they think are more pressing at your work place. You should come first, and they should start supporting you and come along side you showing you that they care and are there for you....

    Indeed, you can count on my prayers that your work conditions will improve and the stress you are under will be relieved and your BP will come down to normal levels. I am praying for a better night sleep for you and you will get the sleep and rest you need so your body can heal. I care Julie and I am concerned that things will turn around and you will be well and have less stress in your life....

    Sending you BIG HUGS.... emoticon emoticon & my Prayer Support! emoticon
    621 days ago
  • VIC522
    Life is too short to be miserable where you work, especially when it sucks up the majority of your time. Find a better culture to work in... my advice...
    621 days ago
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