Not to be a downer, but I haven't been taking very good care of myself over the last couple of months because of the stresses over having to take this test.
Went to the doctor this morning and my blood pressure was sky high. They checked it 4 times and each time was way high. So they told me to get to my regular doctor as soon as possible.
Luckily she had an opening and could see me.
Both doctors suggest that I find another job to relieve some of the stress I've been under.
Easier said than done, especially at my age.
Get this, when I called my manager and told her what the first doctor told me, and that I was able to get an appointment to see my MD before noon, the first words out of her mouth were, "then you're going to make it in, right?" Uh.....NO!! Are you kidding me?! That's all you can say?! Where's the compassion?! Is that really how you think of me?!
Beginning today, i'm going to start taking better care of myself and stop stressing about this stupid test. MAYBE I'll be ready to take it before April 1st. Maybe not. I'm not going to let my bosses push me into something I know that I can't do.
And I have to figure out a way to get more and better sleep. Five to six hours a night is not enough.
Sorry to offload. If I don't start taking better care of myself, I'm not going to be here much longer. I know that. I've been in this position before and hated myself for it then. Now I hate myself for getting BACK in this position.
No excuses. Start slow. A little at a time. Change one bad habit at a time.
Thankfully, the liquid of choice is water. Cut back on the coffee and started drinking tea again, on and off. Eating at least 3 to 4 servings of fruit and 2 to 3 servings, most times more, of veggies daily.
Biggest problem is, I think, the lack of exercise cause I've been focusing all my energies on this STUPID test!! No more of that. I'll study when I feel I have the energy to study.
Work can just go to....
Anyway, I won't apologize again for going off. Think I needed it. DH has been worried about me. My DD has been worried about me. I haven't been listening to either of them because I was afraid that if I didn't get this test taken really soon work was going to make it harder on me than it already is. Guess what...I'm not going to take it, no matter what.