another Sunny Day in the Alternate Universe
Thursday, March 02, 2017
Today my DH woke up and told me "My wife died". I asked him to say it again, and he repeated it. So I told him I was sorry to hear that, and he thanked me.
Then an hour later, as I was getting ready to go to my Caregiver's Support Group, he told me to hurry home so we won't miss the movie.
Now I assure all of you, his wife (ME) is not dead, and we are not going to a movie.
I learned from the caregiver's group that it is probably time for me to call in Hospice.
I knew that was coming, and just trying to avoid it. It brings reality much more to the surface.
My denial system was trying to keep me convinced that we had plenty of time, but I do not believe that is true.
I just don't want to give him up yet. And I don't believe I ever will get to that point, knowing I don't have a choice in the matter.
It's hard to watch the love of my life failing more and more every day.
He has always been my hero, and now I must be his.
With prayers and love, I will be able to do the job.
Thanks for listening. It means a lot to me to have your support!