Trying to stay in the now...
Monday, February 27, 2017
So I haven't written in a long time and I'm sure it is going to come across as a jumble of blah, but I'm feeling the urge to see if this helps me! I have changed my life recently first by buying a house(big kid step for sure!) secondly by looking at my health and how I was feeling.
So throughout January I was focused on getting the new house in order; cleaning, unpacking, moving the furniture countless times! It took a lot out of me but I didn't have the internet to keep me on the couch so I was feeling good about it. On one of my many trips to the store to get that thing I just had to have I came across two of Leslie Sansone's walk at home DVDs. I had done her walk at home "routines" before and really enjoy them so I picked them up. I have been doing them in the morning 5-7 days a week since then! In addition to that I started paying attention to my portions and making better* choices with my diet.
*Better here means I didn't go out to eat when I was in town. I also tried to stick with foods that had no more than 5 ingredients.
I was feeling great and in the first two weeks I lost about 4-5lbs! WHAT!?!? That is awesome! I was on the right track for sure this time! Well then something happened the third week the scale went the wrong way and not by much but by enough to get me concerned. Maybe this won't work.
Back to moving for a moment...While unpacking I found a calendar date that was about five years old. I cut it out once that year was over because it was the anniversary of my quit date. I had given up smoking for an entire year! I of course had picked up the habit once again shortly after that year and have been a smoker ever since. I bring this up because I told myself I would quit again and on February 19th, my original quit date, I started a smoke free life. I did my best to keep from eating everything I could get my hands on but that first day I did give in to my cravings...and boy did I feel BAD about it! After eating clean, even for a few weeks, that Taco Bell I just had to have made me think twice about that choice.
I was still focused on losing weight but I was feeling very discouraged and so I went back to the same place I always go when trying to lose weight..Spark People! I read blogs, and the message boards, and articles trying to find that quick fix that would make just a few pounds fall off so I could get out of this rut. You know what, that doesn't exist. I knew that, I know that! I found myself looking through the success stories. Being so proud of these people knowing that I could do that too! But could I? I mean I was looking at the amount of weight they lost some in a short amount of time, and I thought to myself I had been working harder than I ever had on my weight and I wasn't getting anywhere!! How was I going to be this motivator if I couldn't even keep off five pounds in a month?
By working harder and never giving up and by staying in the now!
I will get there and until then....
Today I worked out. Today I made a good choice for breakfast. Today I will not smoke.