Outside of fighting disappointment from a disappointing week... on several levels... I am going to focus this blog on the positive things that are going on instead of wallowing in my frustration.
Since January 1, I have had movement 23 different days.
I have increased my average movement from 20 minutes to 1 hour.
I regularly take Bolly X and Nia and they have changed my life.
I am drinking my daily intake of water consistently.
I am not counting calories or making myself nuts about what I put in my mouth.
I have lost 6.6 pounds since January 1, down 14.8 pounds from my highest weight ever.
I am down 1 pant size.
All of this is good, even though I'm not making progress as I have in the past. Doing this on a "forever basis" this time... and I mean that... has meant mentally accepting weeks where a 0.6# loss is a win, and a 1.4# gain... as I had this week... isn't the end of the world (even though it totally sucks and I'm unhappy right now). I have had to work to accept my physical limitations with my plantar fasciitis and modify movements in order to move at all. I have challenged myself mentally at the gym, reminding myself that not only do I belong there but I contribute to the body diversity that is so desperately void and unaccepted in those situations. I've had to intentionally evaluate and separate myself from those who have a "quick fix" or "diet" mentality... those that are into using extreme measures to get larger number losses on the scale from week to week, or worse, day to day. That's been hard because while they provide support in one respect, they also contribute to the crazy-making which isn't something I can have around me any longer.
In short, I'm not where I was... on either end of the spectrum. It's new territory... this slow-go weight-loss/get healthier version of what I have known in extreme previously. Little tweaks make a big difference, as it turns out, and not trying to tackle everything at once has been helpful (who knew, right?)
My goals for the immediate future include drinking more water (because 8 glasses a day has started to feel like it's not enough), getting 4x movement per week (because less than that doesn't feel effective for me), and continuing to focus in on eating more fruits and veggies (because that is something that needs improvement). I would also like to start walking in addition to my time at the gym as I have the Get Lucky 7K coming up in a few weeks and while I'm not at the point where I can run, I want to be able to walk without much effort.