I know this even though, up to this point, getting healthy again has been, still is, and will be HARD.
I know this even though I have been stiff and my muscles have ached every day.
I know this even though there have been times I said to myself, "Who are you kidding? You're not going to make it. This is too hard and you're too old."
I KNOW this even though I am exhausted.
How do I know?
For one, the scale says I've lost over 11 lbs. in three weeks.
My Fitbit tells me my resting heart rate is dropping.
I also know because when I first started walking, I could barely walk a mile and now I'm walking 3, five days a week. Yes, it still hurts and it takes me an hour, but I can do it.
I know because a couple of weeks ago, I put on my Leslie Sansone 4-Mile walk video and I tried to do it. There was no way I could keep up, but I did keep moving for the entire video. Tonight, I tried it again, and I was able to do a lot more.
So, even though I'm not where I need or want to be, I know I'm slowly and steadily moving in the right direction. Secure in that knowledge, I am able to continue. My new bit of wisdom for the day:
I have set a long-term goal for myself. I want to fit in an airplane seat comfortably. When I do, I'm planning 2 vacations.
The first will be a long weekend trip to Denver, CO. I have a cousin who lives there. He lost his mother last year and he was very supportive when my Mom died this past October. When he came to Pennsylvania for her funeral, I promised him I would come to visit soon and I intend to keep that promise.
The second vacation will be a longer one because it's all the way on the other coast. I have wanted to visit Sequim, Washington for a couple of years now, but never went because I didn't want to be uncomfortable on a plane for such a long trip. If I can lose enough weight, my dream vacation can become a reality before the end of this year.
Check out this video: wa-sequim.civicplus.com/
It looks like Sequim has everything I need for a perfect vacation: friendly people, great weather, wildlife galore, and natural beauty. Heck, if I like it, I may even decide to live there someday. But that's a dream for another day.
For now, my focus is getting myself healthy again and enjoying the process as much as I can, even when the trip down the scale doesn't go as quickly as I'd like and my muscles are screaming at me and begging me to stop. I am making progress and as long as I keep doing what I'm doing -- eating right, exercising, and focusing on the non-scale victories -- I know my dream vacation won't be too far in the future.