Thursday, February 16, 2017
I thought I might as well give up because I was so tired of starting and quitting over and over again. Of course I want instant results, but I recognize that is an unrealistic expectation. I am tired of shedding tears over my lack of weight loss results. I don't like reaching out for help because I'm downright embarrassed, and it also seems like it's difficult to get people to give the kind of help I feel like I need. I've been feeling so overwhelmed and discouraged. I did share my thoughts with my sister about a week ago, and she told me to just start small. Commit to one thing, not multiple things. I feel like I have so much going on, but I know that she is right. I've committed to working out 15 minutes per day. I am almost one week into my commitment, so I have not given up. If I give up, I believe it would mean something horrible. I already struggle with simple things, but I don't want to lose my mobility. I don't want obesity to cause me to lose my life. I want to be around for my husband and my son, and I want to be around to experience life. There is still some fight left in me, so I am here, continuing on this journey.