A day devoted to calm
Friday, January 27, 2017
Yesterday my heart was giving me trouble all day, and after I took a walk it was worse for over an hour. So today I'm doubling up on my heart medication, I'm not exercising except for maybe a few gentle stretches, and I'm meditating, reading, and maybe watching some light hearted TV. I'm taking a long bath and drinking herbal tea, and I hope to spend minimal time on my tablet.
In a way it's frustrating to have to go so slowly, when I've never had to do it before. I always had asthma to deal with, but not all the time, and sometimes taking my inhaler helped me continue with my routines. Not always, but enough that I only had to take a day here or there off. But being in the hyperthyroid phase of Hashimoto's is an everyday thing. The medication helps a lot, and certainly I've stopped losing weight and most days my heart isn't pounding so hard just when I'm just resting, but I haven't taken it long enough to have a more normal life yet. I was telling my daughter I wish I could start going to the gym again, but not only is it prohibitively expensive where I live, but it's not a good idea for me right now.
Slow and steady, slow and steady. Slow and steady and smart, that's what I have to be. I understand that the "all or nothing" attitude I had as a younger woman didn't help me any, and that slow progress beats no progress. I already feel a little stronger, and my balance is improving. That's great for two and a half weeks in! That's amazing compared to what I was like a month ago. So it's not like there's nothing to be proud of.