Concentrate on being inspiring not on self-doubt.
Monday, January 23, 2017
You'll find not much tracked on this site for the past week or so. Not to worry, I've been diligently tracking my fitness and nutrition. I have not missed a workout;
That being said, let me whine and pout for a minute.
I think I'm rubbing off on my husband. He said to me the other day "since I'm lazy I've just been doing some push ups and crunches in the morning." I'm happy that he seems to be making an effort based on my efforts to loose weight. But it's also frustrating. Last night he pointed out he's already noticed his sides slimming up (I think he's got one to two weeks under his belt). I'm waiting for my 4 week check in before I take progress pictures, so I of course could be wrong, and I still have this week to go.. BUT the stupid number on the scale doesn't seem to like me and I've not noticed a change in the way my clothes are fitting me.
We even got on the subject that he can eat whatever he wants and he won't gain weight. I'm over here trying to figure out how weight is an issue for me. I don't eat terrible. I've been adding new healthy recipes to our menu, watching portion sizes, my calorie intake is good. I had chocolate cravings all last week and never caved in on bad choices.
Don't compare yourself to others. Hubby isn't chubby by the littlest, his results are going to be faster! He's also got a lot more muscle mass and higher metabolism compared to me. I started the year with a goal of losing 12 pounds by April 1 (22 by Dec). And let's be honest about "mom abs." It's not like I had even a "two pack" before kids, but having children definitely didn't help the cause of ab strength vs hubby..
I keep reminding myself that the fact that I'm doing something to loose the weight is what matters! I don't have the "but i'm not doing anything" guilt.
I DO HAVE the "I could eat better" GUILT though.
So, what am I going to do about all this?! My workout program came with a meal plan. A certain amount of protein, carbs, veggies, fruit, healthy fat, and oils per day. Two weeks in and I feel like I'm getting nowhere, so I'm looking at what I haven't committed to yet; this meal plan and I need to be 100%.
I want to feel good in my clothes again. I hate that my tank tops roll up. I hate that I can't seem to hide the "front mom butt." I'd love to put on an item of clothing in the morning and realize it's too big on me. Why do I feel self-conscious in front of my own husband, before kids the only time that was the case was when we first started dating.
So today I'm finding my commitment has been lacking. I need to step it up and dial in.
I also need to remind myself more than anything I'm probably building muscles right now. The scale is going to live in the closet. We'll visit on the 29th, then it's back to the cave till March 5th.
Forget about what you're not seeing happen. Concentrate on how it feels to be working toward your goals.