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They Say a Picture is Worth a Thousands Words

Monday, January 23, 2017

Last Friday I think I had a thousand words for a picture of myself and not one of them was a nice word. I was captured at a Super Saturday event by the even photographer. I was excited to see that I had a picture of myself.....until I clicked on the link and this picture popped up on my computer screen!



It instantly pulled me into the depths of self hate. I looked at it and felt tears start to build up. I even sent it to my sister/BFF and said "is it bad that I look at this and see all my fat?" Of course her reply to me was that I was bad for only seeing the fat. She told me that I don't look like this in any picture that I post after my workouts and that I look great in them. Normally I would take that reply and move forward and bush off the ill feelings I had.....but not that day.

For some reason I just could not let it go. I worked myself up so much with self dislike that I could hardly eat and when I did it made my tummy so upset. I then used that as a reason not to get my lunchtime workout in. I told myself that I would workout that night, instead I let my husband take me out to dinner where I had two drinks, a burger and fries. Let's just say it really was NOT a proud moment for me!

By the time I went to bed I was totally sick to my stomach and could not even look at myself in the mirror! I even tossed and turned all night. Waking up on Saturday there was NO question what I would be doing that morning. I was going to the gym!! I needed to kick my own behind back on track. I was NOT going to continue down a road of self destruction and I was going to push hard at the gym. That is exactly what I did, and I was able to increase my weights yet again. I did all but one move with 12.5lb weights. By the time I was done I could feel every inch of my body on fire. I was a sweating machine!

So....back to the saying....A picture is worth a thousand words.....Yes, a picture is, but it is NOT worth letting it get you tore up inside to the point that you miss your workouts or eat badly. The picture is just a small capture of a period in your life. One second that is your past! I did not look at the picture as my past, but what I was like now. I did not take into consideration that I had lost many inches and pounds from that picture that was taken. I let it ruin a day I had to kick bum. So while it is worth words, it is NOT worth my emotions. It is NOT worth letting it tell me how I feel about the journey I am on.

I am BACK on track and BACK onto kicking butt. I will be using this picture as continued motivation to get me to my goals. This picture does NOT tell me who I am, it just shows me of how far I have come in less than a month to take back the control of my life!

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  • MARINEMAMA
    You got this!
    507 days ago
  • FITMAMA_
    Nice to hear you are back on track and kickin' butt! You got this!
    509 days ago
  • ENDUROVET
    I can SO relate, my friend...
    I need to scan in (2) photos of mine - like you, I was HORRIFIED by a highly-anticipated event photo of me, taken last October... I was pretty darn proud of myself, knocking out a (slow) 5K, but 3.1 mi nonethless basically cold turkey.
    But then I saw the photos = sweaty fat old woman who doesn't appear to have made any progress whatsoever.
    I've been digging through old photos to make an album for my MIL - a very poignant one of our lil' family group (me, hubby, 5-yr-old son) which I probably also hated at the time, but now that I look at it, I hadn't lost my looks (yet).
    You haven't either - smooth glowing skin is something you take for granted, until you no longer have it!
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    510 days ago
  • HOPEFULHIPPO
    That's my girl! You are and will continue to be my inspiration. Glad you were able to remember how far you have come. ;). Loveya
    510 days ago
  • KEVINAANDREA
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    510 days ago
  • ANGELJENNINGS31
    I found your blogs today and I'm glad I did! I'm also going to turn 40 this year and I'd like to lose 40 by 40. My birthday is April 20th so I'm on a little more of a time crunch. If I don't lose all 40 that's fine, I'm going to do the best I can. I am heading into my fourth week and I'm down 6 pounds so far. 2 pounds per week is a healthy loss I think. Good luck to you!! We got this!!! emoticon
    510 days ago
  • FATGIRL61
    Your awesome! Best wishes.
    510 days ago
  • BIGRENTMAN
    You got this we can do it together
    510 days ago
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