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January 17, 2017 800lbs

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

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I'm sorry to everyone I've misled about my weight. Things simply spiraled out of control and before I knew it I was 800lbs. 10 days ago I was forced to call 911 when I could no longer manage at home. I've been in this hospital for the worst 10 days of my life with the greatest people I've ever met. The people here are so supportive and willing to go above and beyond to help me. I have a mass on my lower body below my stomach that needs to be removed it weighs 3 to 400 pounds. I found a surgeon that will do it but he's not equipped to, and the places equipped to do it won't take the risk, even though I said I would sign any waiver I don't care what the risk is. I may have to stay in the hospital or go to a nursing home to lose weight but I'm trying to hold on and do whatever I can do to get this weight off and eventually get surgery. I really screwed my life up and I don't know if there is any coming back, but for now I'm trying. Thank you all for the support and concern! I'm in a lot of pain and only got around to this now because of that pain so if my responses are late coming know that that's why.
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  • MAINLADY
    Praying for you, Tim. Hang in there.
    882 days ago
  • AQUAGIRL08
    I'm sending you prayers for better days ahead.
    1005 days ago
  • 4RASCALS
    Tim your in my thoughts & prayers. I pray that you will get the surgery you need.
    Stay strong, Ask God & the angels for help. Please keep us updated


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  • TERRIJ7
    It was hard for me to click the button that "Liked this blog" because I sense the despair you were feeling when you wrote it. I wasn't immediately able to respond, in fact. Tim, I've seen the photos from your next blog and my heart aches for the physical and emotional burden you bear. I believe that you are a man of some faith and hope that you will dig deeply into that faith right now as you seek the help you need. I'm praying that you will find a doctor and a facility to take your case and get that tumor removed so that you can live your life.
    1045 days ago
  • DETERMINED2019
    Am praying for you
    1048 days ago
  • GARDENSFORLIFE
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  • 4-HEISTHEANSWER
    Hang on Tim. God knows your needs, he cares, he hears your prayers. Many of us are praying for you too. I added you as a spark friend and hope to keep in touch.
    1048 days ago
  • JPPERSELL
    Tim don't be so hard on yourself. You are going to lose the weight and I know that there is a doctor out there who will be able to remove that tumor. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. I will pray that you will not be in any more pain.
    1048 days ago
  • CHELLEG10FIT2DA
    Tim I second everything that everyone else has said before my comment. I am so so so sorry you are having to go through this. You are in my thoughts and prayers now and until things get turned around in a positive direction for you
    1049 days ago
  • ICECUB
    emoticon TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME. I WILL ORAY FOE GOD TO GIVE YOU STRENGHTH AND PEACE. IT WILL TAKE TIME BUT YOU CAN DO IT. I AM GLAD YOU ARE SURROUNDED BY SUCH CARING PEOPLE.
    1049 days ago
  • EDWARDS1411
    One step at a time, one day at a time...
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    1050 days ago
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    I can't imagine what you're going through but I'm sending lots of positive vibes, prayers and good thoughts that the lump will be settled in your favor and that you will feel better too. Hang in there Tim, and I look forward to hearing from you soon. If you need or want to talk, just shoot me a sparkmail.

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  • RUNNER4LIFE08
    Tim, I am very sorry to hear of your struggling. Please continue to hang in there and never lose hope. Never lose hope on yourself because you have proved that you can do this! I will keep you in my prayers.

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    1050 days ago
  • NVRGIVINGUP
    ...burden. I am also praying that the Master Physician delivers you from ANYTHING that will hinder your weight loss journey! In JESUS' Name!!! :-)
    1050 days ago
  • NVRGIVINGUP
    Tim you have always been and always will be an inspiration to me. Just writing and sharing with us all is incredible strength and courageous. I am praying the Lords strength during this difficult time and a physician who is willing to remove your....
    1050 days ago
  • INGMARIE
    Thank you for sharing. Know that you are not alone, you have a whole Spark community here for support. Stay strong and never give up. All the best & good luck.Hopefully you will get the surgery.
    1051 days ago
  • BEANIES_MOM
    Tim, I know it is hard, but keep fighting! We are all here supporting you and sending you good vibes! emoticon
    1051 days ago
  • YBBHAPPY
    Prayers for you
    1051 days ago
  • CBRINKLEY401
    I'm so sorry that you are suffering so much with all of this. Please don't stop taking your pain meds due to the side effects. Your doctors can give you something for those too. And hopefully they can do something about the lymphedema too that is causing you to retain fluids.
    We are all concerned about you. I hope that sharing this on youtube, and having others share it as well, helps you to find a doctor that is willing to do the surgery as soon as possible, so you can get some relief.

    1051 days ago
  • SUCCESSN2018
    I was thinking of you the other day & was concerned when I hadn't seen a blog. I just read your recent one & I'm glad you're in good hands. ((Hugs)) & prayers
    1051 days ago
  • LILYPEARL
    I am so glad you are in a place where you can get help.
    Your situation is fixable and know that the hands of the hospital workers are loving healing hands.
    Do what they tell you to do so all this can be corrected.
    Monitor your self talk so that you are thinking only loving positive thoughts at this time.
    Pray for yourself and for those around you.
    Think of things to be grateful for and make that part of your self talk.

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  • SQUIRRELMOMMA1
    So much of your weight problem is that tumor. That's not your fault. Do whatever that doctor needs you to do so he can operate and remove it. My thoughts are with you. emoticon
    1051 days ago
  • GORDON66
    By asking for help, you're making good decisions. Being in the hospital could be your greatest blessing, because the staff will make sure your diet is appropriate. You may be surprised at the amount of weight you'll be able to lose. Don't give up. You have lots of friends who are praying for you. emoticon emoticon emoticon

    Leslie

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    1051 days ago
  • STARLITNIGHT
    Prayers for a successful recovery!
    1051 days ago
  • NILLAPEPSI
    I will be praying for you.
    1051 days ago
  • CJS1MOMMY
    Tim,

    You are in my prayers and hugs go from me to you. You haven't made a mess out of your life. You actually have started living and changing your life. You called 911 for help instead of not and that was a big and wonderful helpful step. You writing the truth about what is going on is a big and helpful step as well. This means you DO want to change and want help. emoticon ...

    Sorry to hear that you can't get the tumor taken off right now, but it looks like if you lose some of the wight then they can do the surgery. After the surgery you won't weigh 800 pounds as the tumer is 3 to 400 pounds which in reality, you aren't as heavy as you think.

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    1051 days ago
  • VEGGIEPAT
    My heart goes out to you Tim. It took a lot of courage to write this, and I am so proud of you. You are in my thoughts and prayers and know that others are behind you too. Keep moving forward...I am cheering you on, as well as all of us, and believe in you! I believe in you! Much faith, hope and love!! Take care and please keep us posted. We are here for you! emoticon
    1051 days ago
  • SUN66SHINE
    Wow, Tim. No you didn't mess up your life, you went off your plan and lost focus of your goals. Part of your weight is a tumor. Minus the tumor you're actual weight is 4 - 500 lbs. If the doctor's won't touch you right now, do what you can with your meals and chair/bed workouts. All is not lost, you can do something no matter how little it seems. Hope your journey turns around to the positive for you!
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  • JACKIEWALKS4FUN
    emoticon Tim. So sorry, I am glad you are somewhere where you are getting lots of support. Sending lots of prayers for you always wishing the best for you. Thank you for letting us know, and please keep us posted when you can. emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • FEATHERFROST
    Thank you for sharing with us Tim. Know that you are not alone, you have a whole Spark community here for support. Stay strong and never give up.
    1051 days ago
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  • SOPHIEDO13
    Praying for you that someone will be able to do the surgery. I'm sorry your in pain. May angels watch over you.
    1051 days ago
  • JALAPENO561
    Tim, thinking of you and praying for you that you will have this surgery soon.
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  • BARBIEE52
    I'm doubling what everyone said! You are remarkable & your strength is showing through...I'm sending you many loving thoughts & prayers...whatever happens I know God will give you that extra strength...
    Please know I am with you in spirit!...
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  • BATGURL250
    Hugs. Take one day at a time and do your best. You did a good thing calling 911 when you needed help.
    1051 days ago
  • HMBROWN1
    So sorry to hear! Glad that you are in the hospital and getting the help that you need. They will help you to lose the weight and qualify for the surgery. Sending prayers and best wishes your way.
    1051 days ago
  • SLIMMERJESSE
    Tim, I read your blog through tears. I am lighting my prayer candle and will keep you in my prayers. Please keep us updated. We care.
    1051 days ago
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  • SNOWDOESIT
    I am sending you SOOOOO much love right now. Know you are very cared about! emoticon emoticon emoticon Keep up the good fight; I can't wait to hear of the things you achieve!
    1051 days ago
  • BC_HIKERCHICK
    emoticon I'm sorry you are having such a tough time right now, just try and get through each moment of each day and not worry about the big picture. Reaching out for support is a great step we are all rooting for you! Sending you my very best wishes - Lori
    1051 days ago
  • IAMSUNNYHOWARD
    I am sorry you are struggling - but you can do this! Start moving- it may just be wiggling your toes. Set small goals - emoticon You may ask your doctor for some physical therapy also.
    You are in my prayers! Don't look back, we can't change the past- but you can change your future!

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    1051 days ago
  • ADARKARA
    We're all here for you, Tim! Sending good vibes your way!
    1051 days ago
  • BEATLETOT
    Tim, I just feel so sick for you. I hope you can get the mass removed safely. I'm really pulling for you, my friend. I think you can turn this around. I do.
    1051 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    So very sorry. Wrapping you in prayer.
    1051 days ago
  • WALLAHALLA
    Nothing is too difficult for God! I will be praying.
    1051 days ago
  • BLACK_CANARY19
    I'm so sorry to hear you are going through such a rough time but as long as you are opening your eyes each morning there is hope! Never lose hope! You are going to make it through this. It won't be easy and it will be filled with pain but you are a strong person and you can do this. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care. emoticon
    1051 days ago
  • RUTHIEBEAR
    TIM, I am saddened to hear about this. I support you and I care. Please know I am praying for you. Take this one step at a time. Remember to just breathe. I am here if you need to talk or anything. emoticon I am rooting for you.
    1051 days ago
  • MONIQUEDVA
    I've added you as a SPARK friend today. I would like to follow your journey. You sound like you have the will to live. Push thru this & continue to get the help you need!
    1052 days ago
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