Today's devotional 1-12-17
Thursday, January 12, 2017
So the devotional today was realize how valuable you are.
"Where does an understanding of one’s value come from? Ideally it comes from a lifetime of strong connections to loving parents. When parents love their children, protect them, invest in them, look them directly in the eyes on a regular basis and tell them they love them and hug them often, their children learn they are valuable."
I have to say, I am blessed to have on of the strongest connections with my mother. I feel I received all this from her. But as for my real dad. I fought for many many years the thought and feelings that he loved his drugs more than me. I felt that I wasn't good enough for him to even want to quit so he could have a real relationship with me. I didn't feel accepted really. I knew down deep he loved me, but never really felt it most of the time.
For years I felt and wonder how could any man truly loved me when my own dad couldn't. It wasn't until my dad was on his death bed a few yrs ago that I really found out how much he did love me and how proud he was of me. That did a lot of healing in me. But I still struggle with the thoughts from time to time because they was so embedded. Still working on the fact that I am worthy of not only love but to be skinny and healthy.
Father help me to continue to heal in this area of my life. Thank you for all you have done so far.