Starting a new
Wednesday, January 11, 2017
Ok, Here it is a new year and the last few months for me have been anything but productive in this weight lost journey that I am on. As, I wrote back in October, did I trip or just stumble. I can now say that I tripped up back then while my mom and little sister came to visit. It took a couple of days to get back up and continue on. But, still I wasn't where I was before they came out. It was like I couldn't get back into my groove. By the time Thanksgiving rolled around I was really slacking in getting in my exercises. I was still watching what I ate. but, recording it all virtually came to a stand still. I was getting up set with myself and could feel depression setting in. By the time December 1st rolled around I had stopped 90% of my exercises. Only doing a few minutes telling myself that was good enough. I was really feeling out of it, and deep down knew I was going backwards and had to get going forward once again. Still, I was using very excuse I could find to NOT do what I needed to do. I'm in stalemate, I'm not gaining and not losing. Guess you could say that is the best part of it all. And, now here I am two and a half months later still trying to find my groove, to get back into where I was. Which lead me to do some soul searching.
The other day, I came to the realization that the groove I was in is gone. There is no getting it back. No use in feeling sorry for myself because I messed up, and let things get in the way of reaching my goals.The past is just that, the past, move forward and forget about it. right?
The time as come for me to just step back, take a deep breath and say" yes, I did fall, so pick yourself up, brush yourself off and get back in the right frame of mind." With that said, I am starting a new. As of today I will be recording everything that passes these lips and all the exercises that I do outside of my daily activities, regardless of what they are. And, tomorrow I will be taking my weight and measurements to get an idea of where I am at. At this point in time. I have been doing a lot of reading and have found a few new ideas to help me along the way. I have to find the strength to say no and resist the temptations that present themselves to me. The best time to start is the here and now. As I have always heard in my youth, " Why put off for tomorrow what you can do for today." I never would have thought I could apply this to my new journey. But, I do find it very helpful in keeping me going.
I ask myself, "Will I stumble again? I have to honest and say ,yes it possible. But, when that time comes I need to remind my self why I'm here, and what I have to do to keep going. Will my family present temptations for me? defiantly, it's who they are and I wouldn't want them to change to satisfy me. I love them for who they are. I am the one that has to be strong enough to say no. I am the one that has to be accountable for my actions and only I can make them changes. So, here is to one day at a time, A new start to my journey, and looking forward to results as I reach each goal.