IN MY RIGHT MIND
Thursday, January 05, 2017
I have decided that I am not, and never have been out of my mind. If I was out of my mind or had ever been out of my mind, I would not have come back in...it is scary in there. I have these random thoughts that pop in from nowhere. Like all these people that go missing for years....and I can't even go to the bathroom without someone knocking on the door and asking what I am doing... how do they get away from them. I very seldom carry my cell phone....if I do, it is either off or the battery is dead...so they track me down and say why didn't you return my call?.....because you probably want something of me, that's why. I really like being alone most of the time. I like, no, I love my family..but I don't have to live in their pocket every day. Of course it is hard to be alone now. My daughter-in-laws mother, Kathy, has lived with me for a couple of years and last month my granddaughter, Ashley, moved in with me ( she is expecting on 2/2 and won't have paid maternity leave, so she is staying here so she can take the full time off and not have to worry about rent. And another granddaughter, Micah, has moved in until she gets a dorm room because another granddaughter, Paula,( her fiancée, Brando and her 2 kids, Willow and Oliver ) have moved back in with their mother, Linnelll, to try and save for wedding and house). Linnell, my oldest daughter, lives right across the street. And there is not room for everyone, so Micah move in here to make room. . An introverts nightmare.. Please if you are one of those people who have been missing fore years, by choice. please contact me....I need more alone time...Cause although I have not been out of my mind...I may be soon. My only alone time is working out from 4:30 to 5:30 in the morning.... I know, I know, early huh. I have to do it early and get back or the shower schedule gets messed. We have 3 working women in the house...ARGH....voluntarily missing person... HELP ME! For an introvert and emotional eater, let's just say it is a struggle.