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Week 2 of my challenge

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

I did my weigh in today. It's stuck. I haven't gained, which is great. My fitness is still on track, which is probably why I haven't gained. My calories aren't so great. I have been feeling too constricted in my eating. I'm tired of tracking, and just haven't been wanting to deal with it. I've been here for about 5 years, and I'm only down 13 lbs. :( It's getting old. I don't want to be this big. But I'm tired of fighting with it. I feel like I'm always gonna be this big, no matter what I do. :(
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  • TRINASFITLIFE
    I have made any real progress in the past 5 years. I've been trying to get to ONEderland in 5 years, but losing and gaining the same 15 lbs. I'm not giving up though and you can't either!

    You have some real great advice here. emoticon
    1030 days ago
  • MEAGOP
    Oh, Jacque, I hear you. I lose so slowly, and it's hard to keep going sometimes. However, I can feel the daily effects of eating more healthfully, and my energy and strength are so much better which I exercise. I feel as if the benefits of a better lifestyle are worth the trouble, even if I'm not losing at the pace I'd like to see.

    That being said, this time last year I was so frustrated I threw in the towel. I was focussing on the weight loss, as an end in itself, rather than my health. The numbers were not moving fast enough for me, so I quit. I gained another fifteen pounds last year. I completely understand your frustration. I am not sure what happened last summer, but this year my head is somehow in a different space. Don't get me wrong; I would love to see the pounds fly off, of course, but I now know they will not. Instead, I am focussing on my energy, my investment in my health, and the healing and strengthening of my body. If I do this, the weight loss becomes a side effect, rather than the entire point of what I'm doing, and every half pound I lose is a bonus. If it takes me the next two years to take off the thirty pounds I'd like to lose, well, this is the way it will have to be. In the meantime I am not eating what will make me lethargic and unhealthy, and I am working out every day to make my body strong, and my mind clear and sharp.

    Jacque, after years of judging myself and being unhappy with my body, I think I have somehow decided to give myself a tiny break. I'm fine the way I am. I really am. Yes, I'm overweight, but this can change, slowly, and my weight is not the final determinant of my worth as a human being at any rate. I love being healthy and enjoying my life, even at my present weight. I am now taking good care of myself, and this is worthwhile doing. No one else is going to do it for me (something about that "free will" thing) so it is up to me, not my metabolism, my hormonal condition, the fates, the alignment of the planets, or my genes. It's up to me, and me alone, to work with what I have, and try my best to achieve what I want.

    I know you are a different person from me, and you have your own unique experiences and struggles, but I hope I can offer you a different perspective, and possibly some ideas you may be able to use as you search for your own peaceful solution to the scale wars we women engage in. I think declaring a truce with our bodies and learning to be at peace with how they work is key to increasing our health and wellbeing.

    All the best to you, Dragon sister. I know you will figure this out. You seem like one smart lady.

    You can do this. You can.

    Megan

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    1030 days ago
  • no profile photo SHAPNUP
    I get the tracking blues, too. I just hate to be tied to the computer and watching every little thing I eat. But when I quit tracking, I run into trouble. I just can't eyeball the right portion. Don't give up. You can do it!
    1030 days ago
  • SIMCYN
    I can see how 13 pounds in 5 years would be discouraging. I hope you don't give up. Maintaining is great, but you do need to be seeing a loss again. Perhaps you need to reevaluate what you are doing... try some tricks to keep you on track. I have a picture of me in my younger healthy weight size on my fridge. This is what I want to have again. I have diet hard candy in my kitchen drawer so I can pop one in when cooking so I am not tempted to sample subconsciously.

    I hope you find your mojo again.
    1031 days ago
  • ELAINEMILLAR
    Keep up the great work. Things will turn around for you if you keep at it.
    1031 days ago
  • JANET552
    Hey!! emoticon on maintaining your weight during this holiday season. It is a tough time and maintaining is a great feat in and of itself. You're not along -- I'm doing exactly the same. Maintaining. We have to take some credit for that.

    emoticon on maintaining your fitness plan. That is fantastic commitment. It is true, though, that you can't just exercise weight away. It will sculpt you and that's a great NSV. emoticon

    emoticon You can give yourself a break for not sticking to your nutrition plan over the holidays but I suggest you track. I'm not overly fond of it but I have just made it enough of a habit that I just do it. If you absolutely cannot, can you plan to increase fruits and vegetables to a certain level and keep track of those. Are you drinking your water? How about a glass before each meal? I hear you saying you are sick of deprivation so maybe making changes that are positive (adding healthy) will help. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1031 days ago
  • OKBACK2MEAGAIN
    Look to th future it is what is important. I remember complaining about my weight to a gym owner once and this is what he said. "The weight does not always give you a good gauge of physical health. There are some very skinny people out there that can't walk up a flight of stairs." Yes it can be hard and yes it seemed that at times we keep gaining and losing the same ten pounds. Remember this though, if you stop trying and give up, where will you be in a year, or two? emoticon
    1031 days ago
  • WINTERFLOWER
    I've gone through times when I didn't want to log my food. Sometimes it just gets hard. Try to look at one choice, one meal, one day at a time and leave the past behind. You can do it!!
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    1031 days ago
  • SUGAR0814
    Feeling the same! emoticon
    1031 days ago
  • DETERMINEDJANET
    You are not alone in that feeling, but we must keep fighting!
    1031 days ago
  • PRNCSCUP1-2FULL
    Oh, yeah! I getcha! I feel the same way! The thing is we can't exercise away a bad diet! I have such a hard time sticking to my calorie goals! I do track. I made it so that I miss tracking if I don't do it because I do it all the time! I just continuously go over!! I believe we both can lose the weight, but we really have to stick to the diet and exercise! Exercise won't do it alone unfortunately! Stick with it! You haven't given up yet, so don't give up now! We're in this together!!
    1031 days ago
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