Saturday, December 10, 2016
We bought a car today. I don't feel very good about it. I am actually really upset, because I just feel like it's not that great of a car. I went to go test drive a Prius, but I didn't like it that much. The display reminded me too much of my parents' 1994 Lincoln Town Car when I was a kid. Then the man said he had a 2014 Chevy Malibu. My best friend had a Chevy Malibu in college, so I thought it would be fine to test drive it. With a baseline from the Prius, I liked the Malibu more, but I didn't LOVE it. With winter fast approaching and the two one-mile walks each way on my commute, I felt like I really needed to get one today. As I drove it off the lot, I just felt...not excited, you know? I imagined today would be a very exciting day. I wanted to fly to Texas for my friend's Christmas party, and then comforted myself that I wasn't going because I was getting a new car, and I just feel disappointment. I could have gone to a party.
My husband says I'll get used to it, and I'm sure he's right. He also says I can trade it in for something else when it's paid off, which it will be in a year, but I don't want to go through this again. I can go back and get a credit for another car in three days, so I said I want to go back tomorrow and get a 2016 Cruze instead (I mean, I'm stuck with a GM car now), and he said if I'm looking for a car to replace the Honda we have, I don't have to do that, because I already have one. But I feel like the Honda is "his" car, and I'm stuck with this stupid other one.
Today just sucked in general. I've been wanting a hot chocolate for a few days, so we planned to get one after we looked at the Prius. We were going to go to Le Madeleine, and we had to park at a ridiculous shopping mall. The traffic getting into the parking garage was terrible, I was hangry, and I needed to be home for my second shift at my part time job in less than an hour. Then, we couldn't find the Le Madeleine. I wound up ducking into the mall and ordering a hot chocolate from Le Pain Quotidien, and it was disgusting. So much disappointment in a day! Then, I got lost on my way home. Then, I got home two minutes after I usually turn on the computer and it had to update. And then I had to try over a dozen times to get into the portal. It kept telling me the connection was reset, and the Tech Support people were incredibly useless. And I was still so hangry.
My husband is upset with me for being upset. And I think maybe I should just go to bed. I thought typing this out would make me feel better, but I just feel sorry for myself and annoyed at myself for being so pathetic.