I'm sick of this! Time for change
Wednesday, December 07, 2016
So I haven't been here for 75 days, due to my leg cramping issue. In which time I've been to 3 different doctors and 1 physical therapist. One told me he thinks I have tendonitis, another said arthritis of the knee and other said Bakers Cyst behind knee, which was actually confirmed, and physical therapist said I have I have compression of the femoral nerve. Could this be possible? I don't know but during this time I have gained weight, nearly back to what I started this program at almost a year ago, I've been depressed and they put me on a crap load of medicines. So they put me on a muscle relaxer, a steroid, a anti-inflammatory, anti-anxiety meds, opioid pain killed and none of it has helped except make me tired and more frustrated. I never took the anti anxiety and the opioid was short lived as it made me hyper. Recently I stopped taking all meds all together I don't want that crap in my body. So instead of taking 6 vitamins a day at different intervals I take one glass of Emergen-C every morning and it has a lot of vitamins all in one drink. I stopped taking the anti inflammatory I didn't feel any different on it than off the medicine. So i've taken back my life. Doctors have done nothing for me whether I have arthritis of the knee or nerve issues they've done NOTHING! Pretty sad. So I know with both conditions weight loss is key, even though I have no definitive answer as to what I actually have besides Bakers Cyst that is. So weight loss, I want to get one of those fit bit trackers and a stationary bike to start my New Years off right. I'm sick of the way I feel, the way I look. I'm sick of doctors who don't want to fulfill their Hippocratic Oath. I'll have to go it on my own and whether I'll ever find out what's wrong with me who knows. I bought myself a knee brace because I know my doctor won't send me to an orthotic place and I know my insurance won't pay for it. So once again on my own. Right now I need words of encouragement. I'm still pissed I wasn't able to go for my Zumba training I love dance but I couldn't do it not in my condition. So I'm going to pursue my other dream being a personal trainer. I took the test a year and half ago and failed by 5 points I was so devastated. O wanted it with all my heart and I still want it just discouraged to go back but I WANT IT! Encouragement would be great right now.