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Monday, December 05, 2016

So, yeah. There it is. Being straight up honest. I don't like it, but I must admit it. You know....I lost 65 pounds when I did this before. My new weight was 139. Do the math. I weigh significantly more than I did when I did this before. Before. Yuck. Why I let it get to this point I have no clue. I am really freaking out about how much weight I have gained. I keep trying to get started again and failing terribly. I'm not really sure at this point how to do it. I did it before....I know. But it's so much harder this time. Before I had been doing well with my diet for 17 months before I started actually trying by adding in exercise (pregnancy, plus a year of breast feeding). This time I got to figure out both.

The bottom line is that I feel like crap and I know it is related to:

1. My weight
2. Not enough fruits and veggies
3. Little to no exercise

It's time I do something about it. I feel like exercise will be the easiest for me to tackle right at this time in my life. Money is tight right now and I'm buying a lot of cheap food. My plan will be for the time being to do 10 minutes a day....every day. It's not much, but it's 70 minutes more a week than I get right now. In one week I will reevaluate this. Food.....I am putting this on hold until after Christmas because I don't want to set myself up to fail. Money will hopefully be less tight at that point and we will have all the parties over with for a while. Now, this is not a free for all. I would like to try to do better, but I'm not going to focus on it or beat myself up about it.

The last part of my plan includes regularly blogging here. Honestly this is one of the most important things to my plan. This helps me more than anything. Just typing about it helps it stay at the top of my mind.

I love you guys. I love you for still being here for more no matter how many times I leave and come back. Thank you.
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    You can do it again. You have already proven that you can. Small goals add up to big goals. Don't give up.
    840 days ago
  • JF4009
    Take it one day at a time. A goal to exercise 10 minutes a day, to start, is quite realistic. You can do it!
    840 days ago
    Here for you, feeling your pain, and gain!
    840 days ago
    Glad to see you are back. Small goals are the best to get started. I just recently started over myself and am making weekly challenges with my daughters. The past two weeks was just to get our 8 glasses of water in. This week we started with 3 fruits and vegetables a day.

    We are not beating ourselves up because we all gained over Thanksgiving and know that lasting change will take time. Ten minutes a day is great - like you said, more than you are getting now. Stay strong and I'm here to support you.
    841 days ago
    I have been there too. Your plan is great - do what you can with small steps towards your goal and dont forger the water . You are right not to beat yourself up - not a good way to continue this journey - I find the mental side is so important. but you are ahead - you know how to lose the weight, and I'm sure you will get to where you want to be. emoticon
    841 days ago
    Many of us have been there, done that. But you know you can and will get this done now.
    841 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
    841 days ago
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