Thursday, December 01, 2016
I will have to write more on my experiences when I have more time and if people are interested, here's the skinny (don't I wish! har har).
I met with a physician, a behaviorist, and a dietitian Tuesday evening as part of my enrollment in the medical weight loss program. Yay! First hurdle overcome and I was deemed eligible to be in the program at all. Whew. I was also scored for binge eating, and they said that I am *NOT* a binge eater. Second whew.
I did have to drudge up a lot of memories (some PTSD-related) and give them a lot of background on my anorexia/ED issues, but for the first time in a long time -- possibly ever -- I felt like someone was interested in treating my obesity A) like a complex disorder and B) something that requires a holistic perspective and treatment. All in all, I walked away very impressed and excited to get this ball rolling. I start the group sessions and weekly check-ins next week.
I got my brand-spanking new diet on Tuesday night though. It was a very nice experience, and a bit different than dietitans I had seen in the past. This was very focused, and she took into consideration what I liked to eat, when I ate, etc. Although she didn't hand me a meal-by-meal playbook or a grocery list (which Spark will do, if you've ever tried that feature -- kind of cool!) I walked away feeling like I knew EXACTLY what I was going to do every day for the next 7 days. That was a really nice feeling.
I'm to eat 1500-1700 calories to start, and at least 100 g of protein daily. Because I'm not diabetic, she said that by just aiming for that much protein on that kind of diet, my carbs will naturally decline. She said if we need to readjust in a week or two and start carb counting we will. I do like that she only chose calories and one macronutrient that I HAD to count every day. It simplifies things, especially for someone like me who tends to be obsessive and over the top. Heh.
Yesterday, I ate 1265 calories (so I fell short! Yikes!) but 113 g of protein. *good girl*
Today, I've mapped out my day for 1568 calories and 113 g of protein (yes, you're not seeing double. It's like magic!). I'm a lot hungrier today though so I'm going to have to continue to be very diligent, especially as I go into the evening when I'm prone to overeat and get crazy death hunger.
So far, it's a nice feeling of control. I do need someone watching over my shoulder, though. I've never needed it before but I need it now. I'm just juggling too many things trying to wrap up the PhD, get a job, not go crazy, plan a (like) cross-country move in 6 months, deal with the always overhwelming family drama I have in my life, and... just have a life. You know, one where I eventually will feel healthy and good, and be able to focus on the things that matter most to me because eating well and exercising regularly will be second nature.
So, that's it. I'm off and running and ready to make every single day count henceforth. And if I slip up... I now have someone to *tsk, tsk* me and get me back on track. In theory, anyway! :D
I hope everyone is thoroughly enjoying their week!