I Don't Know
Thursday, November 24, 2016
Don't read this if you don't want to. I am feeling very down lately. I am over-eating. I eat when I am upset. I put on my favorite go to black pants Saturday and they were tight! Today my go to shirt was tight. It seems like I say one thing and then do the exact opposite. Maybe I should try to gain weight, that seems to work well lately. I can't seem to stay on the path, every day I stray. I don't just stray, I go onto a different path and get lost. I don't feel I deserve to be a leader on any group right now. I am not active on my groups and I don't contribute anything. I certainly am not motivating anyone right now. How do you motivate while gaining weight? I am spinning my wheels. I am thinking of quitting. I am fat and I don't like myself much right now. I put on a good face for my family. I just don't know what to do any more.