Thursday, November 17, 2016
Holy Cow! It's hard to believe how fast time has gone since this whole process started! It has been one heck of a ride!
To think just 6 months ago I had been confined to a wheelchair for almost a year. My health was in the toilet, my wife had to dress me and sometimes help me bathe, she was literally lifting me in and out of my wheelchair and bed and my kids were watching their dad slowly die physically and mentally. Life was hopeless, i had no desire to do anything and I couldn't even make it to my christian meetings. To say that I was living in the lowest pit imaginable is an understatement and I could not see any way out.
Today, I don't even know who I am! The man in the mirror is not the person I have known for over 40 years. It's very exciting, but at the same time, it's kinda scary. This person I see now has been living inside a mound of morbid obesity not knowing how to get out. That old person is gone and he is not coming back to life! I see pictures of the old me and it makes me sick to my stomach. How did I let myself stay in that condition for so long? Why didn't I do something to make myself healthier, sooner in life? The answer is quite simple actually. I had no self respect, no drive. I had been through child molestation, a very bad marriage for 13 years being physically and mentally abused by my spouse and never standing up for myself until it almost cost me my life. I then found the most beautiful, loving, caring woman any man could ask for who loved me for the person I was . She went through so many years of watching my health go up and down like a roller coaster. The bottom line is there is a time and place for everything. The time and place came and I have taken my life back!
I am able to do all the things now that I have wanted to do for more years than I can remember. I have taken off my rear view and side view mirrors and I am NEVER looking back again. Life is what you make it and only you can make your life what you want it to be. I am completely shocked at my loss this week of 5.8 pounds, bringing my total weight loss to date 108 pounds! I owe it all to the doctors, my family and most of all my God Jehovah.
Have a great week!!