I've been hovering between 135 and 138 for a really, really long time. Months, I dare say. Probably at least five months. I know what's happening--I'm eating too much--sneaking too many nibbles here and there and not tracking them, or adding an extra spoonful to something I've already weighed. And I'm not moving around enough, using my foot as an excuse and letting my husband make excuses to skip the gym, too. It's bad business.
I realized this morning (on the train--I'm on the train now, as evidenced by my previous blog) that my lifestyle, my DC lifestyle, is a 135-pound lifestyle. This is actually what I weighed in DC before I went to Indiana. So I eat, live, sleep and act like a 4'10", 135-pound woman when I'm in DC.
My Indiana lifestyle, like the rest of my Indiana experience, was much worse. It was a 160-pound lifestyle, which was really terrible. I have photographic evidence. It was breathtakingly bad. I just can't believe I looked like that.
This is what "they" mean when they say that weight loss is about a "lifestyle change."
All of this should be very obvious.
If I want to be a healthy weight (and I do), then I have to live a 110-pound life, or even a 95-pound life, which is still healthy and probably better for the joints that I've already abused so poorly with my lifestyles.
Clearly, the big issue is my food intake. "They" don't say that weight loss is 80% diet for no reason. I mean, maybe they kind of do. I have no idea where the number 80% came from, but it is a reasonable figure, and it gets the point across. I have to eat like a 100-pound BeatleTot.
How does one change one's lifestyle? That's another thing that has always kind of grated on me when people talk about lifestyle changes. It reminds me of "forgiveness." It's so nebulous. What does it even mean?
Well, according to dictionary.com:
lifestyle - [lahyf-stahyl] noun 1. the habits, attitudes, tastes, moral standards, economic level, etc., that together constitute the mode of living of an individual or group.
That's actually way less nebulous than forgiveness! That I can work with!
Especially because it begins with "habits." I know habits are really important. My signature on the message boards has a quote from Nathaniel Emmons (I don't know who he is*, but I really like the quote): "Habit is either the best of servants or the worst of masters."
I need better habits. I already have an idea about my worst of masters habits. I've been going to bed late and eating too many sweets between meals, especially if my coworkers offer them (and they are a generous bunch). A 100-pound lifestyle includes only the very occasional beer and less calorie-dense foods than I am eating now. It also includes more movement. My foot doesn't hurt anywhere near as much as it used to, so while I would feel better waiting for a doctor to say I'm good for squats and lunges, I can certainly go back to my normal levels of cardio.
I am making a decision to get out of the 130s. I need to start living a 125 pound lifestyle, so I can make my way down to the 120s, and start a 110-pound lifestyle, so I can get to my weight goal. But it is all about the lifestyle and the lifestyle I want to lead.
As a gift to those who read this whole thing, I leave you with this really great blog post about the same. He's way better at motivating people than I am:
P.S. How great are the new emoticons???
*I just Googled him, so now I know who he is