Looking at the Past
Sunday, November 06, 2016
I had a really great talk with my husband yesterday about our lifestyle choices and leading by example for our kids. We talked about how I lost all the weight after my daughter was born and what we did differently back then, it has been six years, and I am forty pounds heavier. He is also heavier and is no longer in shape. We had another child four years ago, and it has been difficult. I was bedridden for almost two years due to medical issues, multiple surgeries and my son is special needs. In the chaos and stress, we never went back to that healthy lifestyle that we had built before and after my daughter was born. We used to go for walks, go to the gym, make healthy meals together. We have been in triage mode for awhile now.
That being said, I was surprised to hear that my husband was wanting to go back to the way it used to be. He is addicted to soda and he made it clear that he is not willing to give it up. Luckily I hate soda, so it has never been an issue for me, but I need him to stop giving it to our kids. His father used to deliver pop and bring tons home, so he has been abusing it since he was a child. He told me he can't give it up and I don't think it is my place to ask him to. I am actually really proud of him because he has done so well giving up cigarettes, despite everything we have gone through. He did say he would like to go to the gym with me again twice a week, and I am so happy. I just find it so much easier on this journey when we do it together.
So after I talked to him I sat down and thought about when I was successful, what is different. Truthfully I made my workouts a priority and the workouts motivated me to eat better. The workouts need to be more regular but it is the food that is my real issue. I went back yesterday to a workout program that I was really successful with about 10 years ago. I lost over fifty pounds, but I recognize I also kept the food in check too. So I need to plan ahead better and I need to track more. As long as I get sleep, I am going to use the time when my son gets on his bus to schedule workouts again with my old program. I am also going to stock my house with easy quick healthy meals. I usually also make a healthy slow cooker soup each week. I really think it is as simple as that, workout daily, track and stay away for junk. I know I am a food addict. I use food to deal and cope with stress. I numb eat like the best of them. Between my bad habits and my PCOS and hypothyroidism, this is not going to be easy, it may be slow. That is okay though, as long as I keep trying because I know what matters.