Life Gives Us Lemons......
Sunday, October 30, 2016
I just need to sit down and write about this so that I can come to accept it. My journey with Sparks began 5 years ago. I was going through difficult times with my son due to health issues, my mom had a stroke a few months before and I had to place her in a nursing facility and my weight was placed on the back burner. Accidently looking for Spark Notes I came across Sparkpeople. Little did I know that this website would change my outlook on things and that I would have so many friends and people to talk about anything at all. I was at my highest weight back then and thanks to Sparks’ articles, trackers, videos, etc. I was able to keep myself accountable and do something for me in spite of all the turmoil, responsibility, different issues and challenges I was facing.
Well I was able to lose 13 pounds during this time and I almost made it to my goal weight on few occasions. I joined the challenges where I met some of the most inspiring, uplifting and motivating people through Sparks. These people helped me find my way when I was at my lowest moment. I would get a comment, goodie or a private email that really lifted me at those moments. You know who you are so thank you for always being there.
Now 5 years after I joined Sparks I have regained all the weight I loss plus some.
I started to notice last year that no matter what I did my weight just would not budget. During this time they discovered some extremely large nodules in my throat that were biopsied but they came back negative. My doctor was having me check my blood every 3 weeks because my thyroids were completely out of whack. One week it was high next it would be low.
So after about six months and another biopsy of my throat (nodules were not shrinking) she finally diagnosed me with Hashimoto’s Disease. Hashimoto's disease, also called Hashimoto's thyroiditis is an autoimmune disease, a disorder in which the immune system turns against the body's own tissues. In people with Hashimoto's, the immune system attacks the thyroid. This can lead to hypothyroidism, a condition in which the thyroid does not make enough hormones for the body's needs. So she finally gave me medication because my readings were high for about 3 times to help control this. I will need to go back in December for a scan for the growth on my throat and then decide what will happen. The biggest symptom is of course weight gain. I am so depressed because not only am I taking another medication but no matter what I do, exercise, diet, etc., my weight will not budget.
I will still continue to stay active on Sparks and with the challenges but I feel that my hard work is not paying off. As I said at the beginning I needed to write this so that I can start to accept it and move forward.