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Life Gives Us Lemons......

Sunday, October 30, 2016

I just need to sit down and write about this so that I can come to accept it. My journey with Sparks began 5 years ago. I was going through difficult times with my son due to health issues, my mom had a stroke a few months before and I had to place her in a nursing facility and my weight was placed on the back burner. Accidently looking for Spark Notes I came across Sparkpeople. Little did I know that this website would change my outlook on things and that I would have so many friends and people to talk about anything at all. I was at my highest weight back then and thanks to Sparks’ articles, trackers, videos, etc. I was able to keep myself accountable and do something for me in spite of all the turmoil, responsibility, different issues and challenges I was facing.
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Well I was able to lose 13 pounds during this time and I almost made it to my goal weight on few occasions. I joined the challenges where I met some of the most inspiring, uplifting and motivating people through Sparks. These people helped me find my way when I was at my lowest moment. I would get a comment, goodie or a private email that really lifted me at those moments. You know who you are so thank you for always being there.
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Now 5 years after I joined Sparks I have regained all the weight I loss plus some. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I started to notice last year that no matter what I did my weight just would not budget. During this time they discovered some extremely large nodules in my throat that were biopsied but they came back negative. My doctor was having me check my blood every 3 weeks because my thyroids were completely out of whack. One week it was high next it would be low.
So after about six months and another biopsy of my throat (nodules were not shrinking) she finally diagnosed me with Hashimoto’s Disease. Hashimoto's disease, also called Hashimoto's thyroiditis is an autoimmune disease, a disorder in which the immune system turns against the body's own tissues. In people with Hashimoto's, the immune system attacks the thyroid. This can lead to hypothyroidism, a condition in which the thyroid does not make enough hormones for the body's needs. So she finally gave me medication because my readings were high for about 3 times to help control this. I will need to go back in December for a scan for the growth on my throat and then decide what will happen. The biggest symptom is of course weight gain. I am so depressed because not only am I taking another medication but no matter what I do, exercise, diet, etc., my weight will not budget.

I will still continue to stay active on Sparks and with the challenges but I feel that my hard work is not paying off. As I said at the beginning I needed to write this so that I can start to accept it and move forward. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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    Oh Bibi...I'm just so sad to hear your frustration and your discouragement. I feel that often too. So much of our weight I have come to find is tied to stress. You have been under continual and perpetual stress for a long, long time my friend.

    I can relate, I'm always freaked out what is going to happen tomorrow on the 'save our house' fight that has drug on for 6 1/2 years. I'm always worried about our little consignment biz that is SO far behind on sales from last year and our rent just went up. Our landlords are bu##holes that could care less about making things easier for us to be more visible to customers by allowing one tenant in the shopping center to hog almost ALL of the parking spaces with their employee trucks and vans. Totally obliviates us from the busy highway that we pay TOP rent to be on for VISIBILITY! emoticon

    But you know what...there are some things we just can't do a darn thing about other than hand it over to our higher power.

    We both NEED stress relief and it's up to us to find it. Give yourself permission to do 15 minutes a day of meditation...or put on some soothing music that you love and just lock yourself in a quiet room and breathe deeply.

    There are MANY types of thyroid medications and I've found that if your doctor doesn't get the FULL panel of blood tests necessary to find out which one you need it does little good.

    I KNOW I need some kind of support for my thyroid so I picked up a great book called The Thyroid Connection by Amy Myers M.D. I like her because she suffered from low thyroid for years and years and even though she is in the medical field she never got the proper diagnosis. Now she is dedicated to helping other women get the support that she did not.

    A ton of the problem is also related to diet...we THINK we are eating correctly but with thyroid problems we might not be. Lots of healthy veggies actually suppress thyroid function if it is out of whack.

    Pick up a copy of the book...and I hope you find some eye opening information the same way I have.

    I'm sending you TONS of light and love! emoticon
    986 days ago
    So sorry to hear of your diagnosis. All this does seem overwhelming, but don't lose sight of your goal. Take small steps, but keep moving forward. As your health clears up, you'll be able to take bigger steps.
    Don't lose heart; we're here for you.
    990 days ago
    How frustrating. By not throwing in the towel your weight will not go totally out of control. Hopefully your doctor can find the right treatment for you to combat the disorder. It must be frustrating. You are in thoughts and prayers.
    990 days ago
    Ohhh, Bibi. I am so sorry you're having to deal with this, but at least now you know something. And I am sure you will get some good advice from other Sparkers more familiar with your situation, so it's very good that you blogged about it. I have only one which I truly believe will help healthwise and weightwise. Get on the Eat to Live plan, by Dr. Joel Fuhrman. Google it. There's an Eat to Live team on SP too. It really works, Bibi.
    990 days ago
    I can certainly understand your disappointment and frustration! I have heard of the disease as they questioned my husband having it at one time (along with a number of other possibilities)! At least you have an answer, and you know there's a reason why you are having trouble with weight gain! I am sure adding the thyroid med will help...just try to breath and carry on knowing you're on the right path! We are all still with you...and will walk with you as you go through this and can find an answer and get things back to normal! Congratulations on not giving in and for your perseverance! This reminds me of when I learned I was diabetic! What a difficult time...I understand!
    Wishing you a good week!
    990 days ago
    I can understand taking medication that makes you gain weight. If you can find the strength, try to keep moving. It will help your weight and help your mind. Please keep posting to SP as it will help you make it through this bad time. I will pray
    990 days ago
    yes you can do it. I'm on thyroid replacement myself, I have inflamed thyroid that goes high then out of the blue goes low. I leave that part up to my Dr. and routine testing and I focus on my activity. I've learned when it's high I get heart palpitations and when low I'm very sleepy. I hope it won't be long and you'll recognize your own specific markers. In the meantime be active and avoid the scale until weigh day.
    990 days ago
  • JLYN1976
    You can do it is absolutely 100% right! I know right now your having a few set backs that are making it more difficult, but just keep pushing, judging by your post you have been through alot, and still persevere, just take it one day at a time❤
    990 days ago
  • ERC
    Sounds like you have some difficult challenges. Keep your chin high. Will keep you in my prayers.
    990 days ago
    Prayers for you Bbonet... Keep checking in for support
    990 days ago
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